The Opposite Side of Reality
There is so much about the mind that we don't understand. For the past several weeks/months, my wife has been dancing on the border of psychosis. Psychosis is that line where the mind loses its ability to distinguish reality. She often steps to the other side, mainly in the form of deep-seated paranoia. She is angry and dejected when she is in that place, and very little can tempt her back to the other side. I've never been on the other side. There was a time when I was so dejected, so depressed, they I consciously tried to step over to the other side. I couldn't do it. I either did not know the way, or the other side is not subject to voluntary entry. A sane man can not make himself insane by shear force of will. It is possible to play insanity, but insanity itself is an exclusive club. No applications are excepted. People are selected, and once there, you cannot voluntarily leave. My wife asked me the other day what the one thing I most wanted in the world was. I said I wanted her to be better. She said that that was not an option, and that she would only be with me for a little while longer. What does one say to something like that? I'm already doing everything I can for her. So is everyone else. So here I am, hopelessly cemented to reality and unable to escape as others in my reality collapse around me. Alas, reality does not seem to be optional for me. I'm not sure if I should be happy about this or not. Hugs and smores,Steve
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I\'m sorry that things are so difficult for you at the moment. I have been on the other side of reailty and this was confirmed by professionals
It is a terrifying place and one that I struggle daily not to go back to.
Reality is only a frame of mind, everyones reality is different.
I hope that things start to geta little easier for you soon
Know that I am here to listen if you want to talk
xxxx
I can not imagine how frustrated and sad you must feel to not be able to reach her. I don\'t think there is anything you CAN say to her statement. There\'s really no answer to that. You know as well as anyone else that you wishing for her to be well will not make it so. She has to do the hard work to get better and right now she can\'t see what better even is. I will keep you both in my thoughts and hope she can find her way back to reality again. Hopefully with you on this side it will give her a beacon to aim for. Hugs to you!
alphonsus does she mean living with u or departing from this life
She means suicide, Batty. Voluntary and premature departure.
alphonsus i am sorry that you are both going through this.i agree with the others that i don\'t think there is anything that you can say to someone who is at that point. i couldn\'t with my mom when she killed herself she made up her mind and that was it and she planned it very carefully.i am sorry that this is going on for you and your wife. i will keep both of you in my thoughts and prayers.
I think you are doing the right thing. You are a loving husband who is just there for her. Itr is impossible to shake someone around and tell them to just get over it. Mysterious is the human brain and how frightening the world must be when she can\'t rationalize the world around her.
i\'m here if you need someone to listen, i understand what you are talking about. love you, susan
sorry about his hunny.. how awful for you to hear that, it sounds as if she is very lucky to have your love and support.
I have tears as I write this because you express yourself and your situation so vividly. There really is no response I could give that would be adequate, except possibly that I am so sorry you\'re going through this, and I am here if you need to talk, vent, whatever. You are a really special person. ~Nancy
My dear friend. I know where you are. We have even talked about this very topic. I have wanted to slip easily onto that side myself. To lose myself in it. It was not meant to be....for you either. Hang on to me dear angel. I will help you on your path. Remember also that the only person\'s actions we can control are our own. Dear Steve, my heart and thoughts are with you. Love, Michele.
Hugs. Just hugs.