The Next Day & A Safe Place
My daily journal. It should be the next day, but really it's the same day as my last journal since I only slept a couple of hours!!
I find myself feeling, maybe for the first time, in a safe place. The funny thing is, it's a bit scary!! I've never been here before. I found my way out of hell. I found that I am okay on my own. I am finding pleasure in my home and my plants. I can actually be excited that I found a little shelve or picked up the perfect tree for the corner! I am finding joy again in my children, dancing and singing (well my son is mainly on some kind of technology while watching us dancing and singing - but does join sometimes)! I have found strength and compassion and so many friends here on DS!
I am also finding that I can look at my issues and that I actually want to work on them. I want to find myself again and know exactly who I am, what I like, what I don't like and enjoy the process before I even consider trying to share this with another.
I am a bit afraid because it is new ground, but I also feel hope here and I feel so blessed to have found this place.
I find myself feeling, maybe for the first time, in a safe place. The funny thing is, it's a bit scary!! I've never been here before. I found my way out of hell. I found that I am okay on my own. I am finding pleasure in my home and my plants. I can actually be excited that I found a little shelve or picked up the perfect tree for the corner! I am finding joy again in my children, dancing and singing (well my son is mainly on some kind of technology while watching us dancing and singing - but does join sometimes)! I have found strength and compassion and so many friends here on DS!
I am also finding that I can look at my issues and that I actually want to work on them. I want to find myself again and know exactly who I am, what I like, what I don't like and enjoy the process before I even consider trying to share this with another.
I am a bit afraid because it is new ground, but I also feel hope here and I feel so blessed to have found this place.
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You dance and sing away!!!!!!
So happy for you, its only scary cos its a new feeling being safe!
You are doing great and it comforts me to know its possible xx
Really inspiring! I hope you do find yourself and your happiness before you find another! Such a wise way to proceed. Once you know yourself, finding someone else is a LOT easier. That\'s how I went about finding my hubby--before him I was turning everyone down. I was alone for 6 years... But I\'m glad I was. I got to know who I am--wrestled my issues--and felt a lot more equipped to be there for another person after doing so.
You are amazing for all you\'ve done! BIG HUGS!
Courage is admitting your are afraid but facing your fear anyway!!! May you dance until your heart is filled with joy and peace!!!! May your heart sing a new song of happiness and contentment. Hugs to you!!!