The Next Day & A Safe Place

My daily journal.  It should be the next day, but really it's the same day as my last journal since I only slept a couple of hours!!
I find myself feeling, maybe for the first time, in a safe place.  The funny thing is, it's a bit scary!!  I've never been here before.  I found my way out of hell.  I found that I am okay on my own.  I am finding pleasure in my home and my plants.  I can actually be excited that I found a little shelve or picked up the perfect tree for the corner!  I am finding joy again in my children, dancing and singing (well my son is mainly on some kind of technology while watching us dancing and singing - but does join sometimes)!  I have found strength and compassion and so many friends here on DS!
I am also finding that I can look at my issues and that I actually want to work on them.  I want to find myself again and know exactly who I am, what I like, what I don't like and enjoy the process before I even consider trying to share this with another.
I am a bit afraid because it is new ground, but I also feel hope here and I feel so blessed to have found this place.