The New Girl

 I had such a rollercoaster of a day today.  I found myself wrestling with not letting my husband dictate how my day was gonna playout.  For so many years living with an addict, my days revolved around him.  Which guy would he be today?  Maybe today he'll love me enough to see how much he's hurting me.  How is it, he still gets to me?  I've gotten really good at not giving him the satisfaction of knowing that he does at times.  I'm on my own now with my beautiful son and we're doing great.   Why can't he validate this?  How funny, I just read someone else's journal regarding their need to seek approval and here I am.  It frustrates me so.  How can one person be so blind to how cruel and selfish they really are?  Well I've wasted enough thoughts and energy on this topic.  Tomorrow's a brand new, blessed day.  I thank God for all He's given me and pray for His mercy, grace, favor and love in every moment of everyday.