The most amazing day!!
I've not felt this good in quite awhile!! I feel on top of food choices!! And like I have my feet back under me in relation to healthy eating... This is the ME I know I am! I've spent 4 long years getting my 'food act' together... and last fall when I 'lost it' so to speak, when my thyroid took a turn for the bad again... and I gained 40 lbs in what seemed like a heart beat... I was beginning to think I would never re-find my mo-jo! But I knew... I just knew... if I kept 'faking it' so to speak, it would find its way back...
And I think it finally has! I felt like its been getting better... but this last week or two have been so much smoother in relation to my food choices! It is becoming natural again to choose healthy eats vs a struggle....
I think I need to work hard to remember this loss of mo-jo that I experienced. It was easy, after a few years, to get a little cocky, thinking I had it in the bag... And then when the bag popped, (ha ha!) and things fell apart, I was devastated!
But I'd like to think i have learned from this experience... and hopefully remember that what took years to become (a foodie) will not fix itself in a few short years... So, lesson be learned!
Even after surgery... I need to stay forever vigilant! And if (when) I do mess up, to take my own advice (ha!) and forgive myself, dust off, and move on!
Tonight for dinner I had asparagus, tilapia (fish) and made a mango, banana, avocado and pistachio salsa for the fish. It was WONDERFUL!! And I am still only at 1100 calories for the day!
And best of all... I feel FAB about getting my personal power back! Of course I am still crying like a crazy woman! But I think this is healthy too... I think it is me dealing with stuff.... allowing myself to believe there is a light at the end of the tunnel AND mourning for a life I am leaving behind. :)
I am actually EXCITED to go step on the scale Monday at my NUT appointment!! After Monday... only 2 NUT visits left! Time is a rolling along!
And I think it finally has! I felt like its been getting better... but this last week or two have been so much smoother in relation to my food choices! It is becoming natural again to choose healthy eats vs a struggle....
I think I need to work hard to remember this loss of mo-jo that I experienced. It was easy, after a few years, to get a little cocky, thinking I had it in the bag... And then when the bag popped, (ha ha!) and things fell apart, I was devastated!
But I'd like to think i have learned from this experience... and hopefully remember that what took years to become (a foodie) will not fix itself in a few short years... So, lesson be learned!
Even after surgery... I need to stay forever vigilant! And if (when) I do mess up, to take my own advice (ha!) and forgive myself, dust off, and move on!
Tonight for dinner I had asparagus, tilapia (fish) and made a mango, banana, avocado and pistachio salsa for the fish. It was WONDERFUL!! And I am still only at 1100 calories for the day!
And best of all... I feel FAB about getting my personal power back! Of course I am still crying like a crazy woman! But I think this is healthy too... I think it is me dealing with stuff.... allowing myself to believe there is a light at the end of the tunnel AND mourning for a life I am leaving behind. :)
I am actually EXCITED to go step on the scale Monday at my NUT appointment!! After Monday... only 2 NUT visits left! Time is a rolling along!
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So glad for the things you are learning and feeling. You give me hope.
you are such a blessing Becca Thank you :)