the joy of taking care of your own life

a long time ago...in a galaxy far far away .. jk lol

but a long time ago I had a therapist who asked me if I found joy in taking

care of my life? At the time I did not.. But as we worked together and I started to build

my own life I sincerely did enjoy taking care of things - and I held onto it - that sense

of achievement as I worked along..today I am feeling that old sense of dismay about taking

care of things. But I really can't buy into it..I think I can find some things depressing about my life

but I need to keep on keeping on. I am alone right now. Blue is in the other rooms. There are things

here that I could be taking care of and so I will.