THE GREAT WALL OF DEPRESSION
The world leans on us. When we sag, the whole world seems to droop. ERIC HOFFER
Well, I was fine when I wrote yesterday’s journal. I had lots of plans for the day. Then at 10:30 a.m. I hit the "GREAT WALL OF DEPRESSION". I STARTED CRYING, ANXIETY, COULD HARDLY BREATHE AND ON IT GOES. POOR HUBBY JUST DOESN’T KNOW WHAT TO MAKE OF THESE SESSIONS THAT COME OUT OF THE BLUE. I TOOK EXTRA PILLS AND CRAWLED BACK IN BED. THAT IS WHERE I STAYED ALL DAY. TODAY IS "IFFY" I FEEL IT SQUIRMING JUST BELOW THE SURFACE. SUPPOSE TO GO TO THE SUGAR WOODS TODAY WITH OUR FRIENDS AND HAVE PANCAKES AND SAUSAGE. THEN PLAY A LITTLE MEXICAN DOMINOS. I REALLY HAVE MY DOUBTS THAT THIS WILL HAPPEN. BUT I WILL PUSH MYSELF AS MUCH AS I CAN. HOWEVER, I DON’T WANT TO GET AN HOUR FROM HOME WITH LOADS PF PEOPLE AROUND AND HAVE A MELTDOWN!!!
DEBBIE
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Well, I was fine when I wrote yesterday’s journal. I had lots of plans for the day. Then at 10:30 a.m. I hit the "GREAT WALL OF DEPRESSION". I STARTED CRYING, ANXIETY, COULD HARDLY BREATHE AND ON IT GOES. POOR HUBBY JUST DOESN’T KNOW WHAT TO MAKE OF THESE SESSIONS THAT COME OUT OF THE BLUE. I TOOK EXTRA PILLS AND CRAWLED BACK IN BED. THAT IS WHERE I STAYED ALL DAY. TODAY IS "IFFY" I FEEL IT SQUIRMING JUST BELOW THE SURFACE. SUPPOSE TO GO TO THE SUGAR WOODS TODAY WITH OUR FRIENDS AND HAVE PANCAKES AND SAUSAGE. THEN PLAY A LITTLE MEXICAN DOMINOS. I REALLY HAVE MY DOUBTS THAT THIS WILL HAPPEN. BUT I WILL PUSH MYSELF AS MUCH AS I CAN. HOWEVER, I DON’T WANT TO GET AN HOUR FROM HOME WITH LOADS PF PEOPLE AROUND AND HAVE A MELTDOWN!!!
DEBBIE
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Replies
I am so sorry to hear this happened. That is about how I was feeling a couple of days ago although when I hit that wall it also tends to make me totaly angry at the world and everything feels like it rubs my nerves raw.
I wish I could go hide in bed when that happens, the world would be a better place if I could but my interanl engine is so reved up then I just cant\' do it, now if I could make myself get out and walk when these spells hit I probably would really take off the weight.
Hope your feeling better soon, light and love, Georgia
Sorry to hear you are in the dumps, I hate that place. I have been borderline but I think it is from the back injury. I can\'t stand to be idle. I am trying to be idle but it is hard. Hope you get better quick. They do say we beepers sometimes dump a little in the spring, why I don\'t know. It doesn\'t make sense to me for sure. Get better quick. Naomi xo