The good side makes it hard

Yesterday at work I had nice phone calls from Hubby.  I got home and things were like how they are during good times.  He was nice, thoughtful, caring.  I was my usual self and things all good.
I got home from work, we played around with our daughter, got her fed and to bed, we sat around and joked, watched tv, chatted.  A normal time.
I dont like these times as they are the times I start to doubt all the bad.  I start to think, well maybe this time it'll all work out and I wont have to leave.