The funeral day versus scares
I was released last night from psychoward today is my moms funeral I have to go in an hour but now realitys hitting me the house is mine the car i mine and all 6 kids are now gonna be under my care. brielle if she was a kid that would make 7 but she is 18 i cant say shes a kid. I know this may sound stupid but im scared of one of my cousins. Alex has severe uncontrolable bipolar his anger outbursts become too violent I can never control him the others are also afraid of him when he gets into those outbursts I dont know what to do with him. I cant have him beating any of us up. my mom usually lets him get away with it i cant do that i dont know if i could my ife the little ones lifes this scares me. defiance i can handle we all in my house have it. Alex is 17 and just like his dad my uncle alex they both have uncontrolable bipolar. Brenna is 4 and yes shes still in diapers she has a developmental disability same one i have but hers is worse she will never walk potty train thats what the docs told my mom they said same thing about me but i walked potty trained even advanced in classes I know brenna can do it too but if she cant ill be there for her until i die. brittany is ok brooke is ok emma is ok chris has bipolar but he controls his so hes ok Most of them have severe adhd like i do but hey i can handle that. the younger ones know they ge time outs when being defiant. Brielle lies alot I need to trust her but Im still figuring out why derek left her because of her lies because shes looks pregnant and believe me she does shes got a belly. I just dont know what to do I need help
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thats not nice michele oh wait I am afraid of him AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH
and yes Im pregnant 3 months
I knew it I knew it hey wait 3 months you look 7 months pregnant why did you lie to me saying you were not pregnant when last month you were vomiting everyday haha
and if you are three months than you must be carrying more than one your HUGE!!
dont say that please im going to docs tomorrow
hey did you fall in the shower this morning seriously i heard you singing in the shower seriously i heard i was blown away what could i say just seems to make sense taking away everything and i cant deal with out i tried to find the good life but good things in life are hard to find blown away blown away can we make this something new hen i try to do it right its all wrong its not over SCREAM THUD OH MOTHER FUCKER OW
Ill take you and all i could say is im very disapointed in you cuz
and yes i did fall in the shower thismorning im fne
hey we gotta get ready for the funeral
hi, after reading your journal, you will have your hands full. will be praying for you . you said that you will be able to handle it. i believe you will be able to sasha. god loves you too much and nothing is going to stop you from caring for your family. god will be with you at all times. you may get stressed out at times, we all do, if you do, just take some time for yourself. You are a very strong person. God is working within you and all is going to work out for you. you hang in there and dont be afraid....satan wants you to be afraid. you got to many loved ones depending on you. you can still get outside help...to come in once or twice a week to help you out. you stay strong my friend..if you are ever on line...and I am also, will love to chat with you... am here for you always, and I hear that you fell in the shower, so sorry to hear that, I pray all is well with you. you have a good day......loveya...hxhx