The first time
When I first started cutting, It was small with safety pins and taks and the metal parts of erasers , I thought I could stop anytime i wanted,I was wrong, Its an adiction like smoking or drinking, Cutting was like breathing for me, a sigh of relief.
Over the years I have countless scars and a broken spirit ,you ask what did cutting do for you? It broke me, made me feel emotionless,crippled my spirit,but yet gave me relief , kinda how smoking gives some cancer. Cutting ultimatly sent me to the psyche unit a few times along with suicide ideation.so cutting gave me a few stacks of medical bills.
Cutting makes me self conscious, constantly hiding. Withdrawl from cutting and telling myself no lands me in anxiety attacks.
So for those who think cutting or self injury is okay and you think it will be a quick fix to what your feeling , think again , its a long rode, it doesn't magically go away.It buries emotions and keeps burying them until one day you wake up and you cant identify what it is Ur feeling,thats scary.
Recently I cut again i did it with a razor blade ,I cut too deep,I thought I wouldn't quit bleeding ,I got scared , I was to ashamed to call anyone,And to afraid to call 911, I was going to let myself die, because of fear. What im saying is dont let it get that far, stop now.
Over the years I have countless scars and a broken spirit ,you ask what did cutting do for you? It broke me, made me feel emotionless,crippled my spirit,but yet gave me relief , kinda how smoking gives some cancer. Cutting ultimatly sent me to the psyche unit a few times along with suicide ideation.so cutting gave me a few stacks of medical bills.
Cutting makes me self conscious, constantly hiding. Withdrawl from cutting and telling myself no lands me in anxiety attacks.
So for those who think cutting or self injury is okay and you think it will be a quick fix to what your feeling , think again , its a long rode, it doesn't magically go away.It buries emotions and keeps burying them until one day you wake up and you cant identify what it is Ur feeling,thats scary.
Recently I cut again i did it with a razor blade ,I cut too deep,I thought I wouldn't quit bleeding ,I got scared , I was to ashamed to call anyone,And to afraid to call 911, I was going to let myself die, because of fear. What im saying is dont let it get that far, stop now.
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