The first night lying in bed without Ryan, his 1st sign to me

I PUT THIS JOURNAL UP FOR THE NEW MOMS TO READ:
RYAN I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO SO MUCH!!!! Those are the exact words that I heard you whisper before I woke up the next morning after you passed over to the other side.The first night that I had to lay down knowing you were gone to (HEAVEN), I Prayed for you and God to help me sleep and help me through the fear of pain waking up the next morning. I want to thank you and God for answering my prayer!!! I want  to share with my friends how you and God helped, by answering my prayer!!! Before I woke up the first morning without Ryan, I felt the flow of his spirit go through my body,I could see it and feel his spirit enter my body,I heard him whisper with a soft voice (I love you and miss you so so much) then I knew he was back inside me again...  I felt (LOVE,PEACE AND COMFORT), ... Then I felt 3 hard taps on my back,as though Ryan had tapped my back 3 times to wake me up...I woke up and knew that he answered my Prayer!!! I said thank you Ryan and God, now I know ' you will help me get through the funeral...( If you ask you shall recieve ) no question in my mind.!!!  The next Prayer I asked was ( PLEASE RYAN, GIVE ME MESSAGES IN MY DREAMS ) and he has, mostly I've had only visions of him, mostly of him in his younger years. He did give me about 4 messages in my dreams , I'll tell you those on my next journal entry...  THANKS RYAN FOR YOUR HELP...LOVE YOU FOREVER SON!!!!  MOM

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deleted_user
deleted_user

I remember the fear and pain I felt that first night to. Hoping that it would all be a terrible dream and when I woke up Nathan wouldn\'t be gone:( I\'m so happy that you had that experience. I\'m glad you dream of him. Thank you for sharing. Love, Danette
lynette22
lynette22

I didn\'t sleep the first or second night because I was at the hospital with Kyle due to the injuries he sustained in the accident that took his brothers life. I\'m so glad your prayers have been answered. I spent the 3rd night in a hotel near the hospital and was so beat I don\'t remember the night. But when I did finally make it home, I heard Matthew whispering to me that he was okay, he said he loved me and again said he was okay. My first dreams of him were also when he was younger. I\'m so glad Ryan is listening to his mamas prayers. Much love and big hugs, Lynette ~ Matthews mom
rcoco
rcoco

The magnitude and purity of the love that we have for our children transcends the physical plane. I know of what you speak. I am a believer! As our Angels move freely through Creation, they always take the time to comfort their Mamas through the grace of God. Thank you for sharing your heart.
love and light, Rebecca, Christophers mom
Aparoulek
Aparoulek

In the beginning each morning was so hard, wasn\'t it? For some reason, I could sleep, it was almost like I was in some kind of drugged state but, I didn\'t take any drugs. The problem was waking up because then everything was real again and Greg was really dead. I had three amazing dreams within the first month of Greg passing...they almost were like a journal of his journey. At first he was confused and disoriented and he had an otherworldly look in the dreams but in the third dream he looked beautiful and almost shining. His hair was soft and curly and his skin was beautiful. He had on his brown coat and the coat was such a vivid, clean brown...it was like he was better than he had ever been. I think he was visiting me in each of those dreams and he was telling me things were OK by the third one. I am so glad you got such a strong message from Ryan...it is so amazing how they can let us know when we need it the most. Thanks for sharing this wonderful journal. Peace and Love, Anne
deleted_user
deleted_user

I am always gald to hear our chidren know how much we need them.I love the reinforcement of other children connecting. It really upsets me when people act like you\'ve got to be crazy.I had one lady tell me that it was the devil trying to fool me.I had to get away from her before I blew a fuse and she would of thouyght I was the devil...Love Lynn
deleted_user
deleted_user

I can\'t remember if I slept at all at first. I must have. The shock was so big I truly can\'t remember. Glad you found peace. Hugs Cathy
deleted_user
deleted_user

I am so glad you posted this. I know it will help a lot of Mom\'s that are just beginning this journey and myself that has been on it longer. Hugs, Barbara
RememberKala
RememberKala

I was up and down all through the night for several weeks. Sleeping after total exhaustion set in. Eating when someone handed me food. Going where I was taken, only because I had been taken there. It was all such a blur. But one precise moment in that fog I will never forget. It was the first time Kala spoke to me...that I knew of at that time...I was sitting my car outside of the funeral home and Kala said, \"I\'m OK mom, I\'m OK\". It was the answer to my prayer, for my child to be OK, and yet it was so hard to accept and believe. Time, and Kala, have taken away all my doubts concerning her being OK. I KNOW SHE IS! Thank you for sharing this wonderful, and painful experience with us. I believe their greatest desire is to comfort us.

THANK YOU KIDS! We\'re trying to listen. We\'re trying to heal. We just miss you so much...
CorriesMom
CorriesMom

Thank you for posting this. It helps to remember those first dreaded and dreadful nights and realize that I truly have gotten so much better. The first night I didn\'t sleep at all. We received the phone call at midnight and then had to make travel arrangements to fly across the country to Maine where Corrie was killed. Honestly I don\'t remember our three nights in Maine nor the week in Seattle before we moved to Nevada (a move that had been in the works for awhile). I do know that for the most part I have been able to sleep ~ kind of like Anne ~ almost like it\'s drug-induced. But mornings are very painful ~ less so now but still hard.

Until we saw Corrie in the funeral home a day and a half later, I kept feeling that she was sad, lonely and scared. After we saw her and hugged her and stroked her and told her how much we love and miss her, I knew she was peaceful and ready to move on. She appeared to several people in dreams to say \"don\'t worry ~ I\'m ok\". She gave me a haunting melody that I finally tracked down and realized it was a gift to me.

There are signs ~ though I would love to see more.

Thanks for sharing this.

Love and hugs ~ Debbie
deleted_user
deleted_user

I never did have much of a problem sleeping (surprisingly). Sleep seemed to be a relief to me. Of course, I asked God to help me sleep soundly. The dreams are so special though. I dreamed of the last time Philip was at our house and when it was time to go, he hugged and kissed me as usual. I seemed to \"know\" and held on to him extra long. I remember thinking that God was giving me the gift of a visit when I needed it. Philip\'s wife dreamed that he called and said that he was sorry he didn\'t get a chance to say good-bye, but that he had to be away for awhile. When she asked where he had gone, he replied, \"You know where I am!\" What a comfort. I also dreamed that Philip was telling me that he had visited and eaten with a really rich family and then asked me if I was jealous. That took me by surprise. Then I told him I was just concerned that he was there without adult supervision. I told my daughter in law that the rich family must have represented God in Heaven, but I wasn\'t sure about the adult supervision. She said she thought it was because he wasn\'t supposed to go before his parents! Wow! Anyway, thanks for sharing with us! Linda
KandL
KandL

Thank you for sharing your beautiful signs of peace. What a gift to know our kids are OK, better than OK. It is still hard, but the signs I have gotten help me to remeber he is with the One that loves him more than I do. The One that created Eddie in His image & that comforts me. I wish you many more visits from your loving, precious Ryan. Hugs, Linda
biowoman
biowoman

I don\'t like remembering those early days...but I do go there sometimes...I am so glad that you felt peace...love to you...Karen
SusanLarson
SusanLarson

Thanks for sharing. Hugs, Susan
zzztop
zzztop

THANKS FOR SHARING YOUR DEEP ,DEEP LOVE FOR YOUR SON.HUGS ZZZTOP
Livingjuicy
Livingjuicy

This is heart felt and very insightful. This is beneficial for all of us to read no matter where we are on this journey. Thank you. Peace to you this day and hugs too. Joanie