The Fabulous Five Chapter 1- TONY

Ok so here are the FABULOUS FIVE I previously spoke about in my last journal entry... JAY, TONY, ZEE, ALEX, JOSEPH For those of you who read my last journal entry about Jay I wont waste your time. Now on to TONY... Tony is the same story as jay just a bit different same outcome though. I have been knowing TONY since I was 12 years old and he was 18 years old. I have been living with him from 17 years old to present. We are both Buddhist so we met at a Buddhist meeting when I moved to California. I thought he was hot and we finally was getting close (hugging and he played with my hair is all) when I was 14. At the time he was 20 years old and it didnt look right with the age difference and all so he waited till I was 17 years old. By then he was 23 and we dated for two weeks and then I realized he was not the guy for me. Again I kept sleeping with him because I didnt want to sleep around and I would get boyfriends but he would shoo them all away. Now, he is so obsessed with me its sick!! He has women issues too. He doesnt like himself and is not that confident about himself because he thinks girls dont feel him. He is not macho yet sensitive and meek and you know us ladies now a days. We need a man to beat us so we can feel he cares. Tony fears he will end up like his mom. His mom had the same issues. Red hair green eyes and different from the blonde and baby blues. She just picked a man and had 2 kids by him and Tonys dad was a heroin addict who dies when Tony was 8 years old. Lynda (Tonys mom) didnt care. She got what she wanted and hasnt been with anyone since. Tony fears he will end up the same way so he clings to me because I was the only one that came around and liked him for who he is. Now we are no longer friends. I put our relationship on hold because he needs to not depend on me to make him happy. Plus, I cant be happy because he always asks about the guys I am with and even told one of my ex's about our relationship and personal things about me so the guy wouldnt like me. He is emotional and unstable with his life. I happen to pay some of his share of rent some times and he cant seem to focus on anything else in life but me. Another reason for isolation, he needs to stop LOVING TOO MUCH :) I happen to have men in my life that are the same as me. I care about these men because there is history but man do I need a break from the work!!