The Fabulous 5- General Update

When I first came on DS I had this quintet of friends who I needed to assess... Since the last Fabulous Five update, I have made some drastic changes: ALEX:WE ARE NO LONGER FRIENDS! Alex is not as fortunate as some and does need some help financially. That was me. I dont mind doing it but can you please make me feel appreciated? I dont think that was too much to ask considering how much I put out there. She uses people for their money such as me, guys in the street that she meets, her boyfriends and other friends that she has. She was dropped because she wasnt being a stand-up woman, there was no care, on her part, for me and a friend should always look out NO MATTER HOW BAD THEIR SITUATION IS, PERIOD. JAY:WE ARE NO LONGER FRIENDS! Jay was my boyfriend for 6 years and we were friends before that for a  year. I had a talk with Jay about how I wanted to be friends and we were really trying to get there. I met another guy named Joseph and it became easier for me to be friends with Jay. Unfortunately, not the other way around. He said something to me that made me think, "I dont even consider you as a friend. Your just my EX." That was a shocker since I have known him and his family for a while. Heart broken and sad about the decision, it had to be made. Plus, he needs to focus on what he wants out of life (as do I) so I could do bad all by myself, thank you. TONY:*SIGH* The biggest problem for me. This is my friend of 11 years who idolizes me and has made our friendship (I contributed to this mess as well) a living nightmare! We are still friends but I have put my foot down and told him SHAPE UP OR SHIP OUT! Tony is too dependent on people to make things happen for him in life and also holds others responsible for his happiness. He was also my scapegoat to alot of things in life I didnt want to face and most of my problems stemmed from him. We are now apart and I have made it a point to him that he needs to fight his own insecurities in order to win in life. I am moving out so he can be more independent and so can I.  Zee:*SIGH* I dont know what to do with this girl. She hasnt done anything bad to me, Im just wondering if I really need her around or not. She is just a friend (another scapegoat, keep it real Krissy) that I run to when things around me get to difficult to deal with. I go to her house and drink, smoke, and sometimes do other drugs (XTC and it was one time but still) that I know I shouldnt be doing or that is not like me. Saying no to Zee is easy I just get so depressed sometimes that I want to fuck myself up and as good as I have been not  doing so, I slipped up once. People need people and thats my situation but I know I need to pick a better person than her so she will be replaced shortly... Joseph:**CHEEZN** Ever since I have met Joseph he has been a positive reinforcement in my life! I have been conquering my fears, was given a place of isolation, receiving love and being showered with support, reading great materials (he has a bookstore in his house sheez....) and just being able to get to know me and become more of myself everyday I wake up. I havent been this happy since....(thinking).....(thinking)....since I decided to make the decision to be with him and share his home. Joseph has recently asked me to move in with him and I said yes. His reasons: (1) Tony isnt healthy for you right now (2) You need to get back on track and focus on being independent (3) I love you and would love to share my life with you! Joseph and I are going to be swell =) I am updating some goals today: BECOME STRESS FREE because I am creating a stress free environment. TRUST AND VALIDATE MYSELF because I am making my own decisions without the help of anyone else and I trust they are the right ones for my life. HAVE POSITIVE PEOPLE AROUND because I am throwing out the old and welcoming the new. STOP LOVING TOO MUCH because I am starting to love myself more than ever before. I no longer think of others before myself. CROWN MY HEART EVERYDAY because I am facing my fears head on and creating solutions. I have started a new chapter in my life.