the evolution

I went to work today and was so glad I was there - just keeping busy


doing something i knew I could do - and since there are things in my life


right now I don't know how to handle - work seems like my escape - where


I can shine and add value..


I drove home and immediately as I started to take command of the journey


home - it's like (and I've used this metaphor before) my mind started to


seek out the satellite of my affirmation - kind of like a gps for my sense of self


and focus - I started to find as my focus those relationships that are the major focus in my life


and currently they are stressful and I am troubled by them because of some


news that I got yesterday...from an old aquaintence.. It wasn't so cool that he told me


but having done that I now question my value and I am trying to hold onto the positive.


It's like I am overwhelmed by my feelings and gosh I wish I were normal and could just deal with the


bumps in the road but I think that's comparing but also it's wanting it all to be easy.


I know I am lucky- and I am grateful. Sending big hugs and peace out to you guys.

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malibumark
malibumark

anyways I guess what I wanted to say is that from one action to another it's like we evolve and change
and have different highs and lows and I can see how some cocoon away to deal with all that - which is something
I do as well.
mlr0853
mlr0853

Many times, and it's just life...the challenges of my past, my actions/my reactions, help to guide me through a current situation and find solutions. My ongoing challenges with John have taught me so much! For me, it's a never ending process.
SensitiveHoboLady
SensitiveHoboLady

Hope your evening proceeds well, whatever hiccups there may be. I’m sure you can sort through. That buzz word resilience is a good one.
malibumark
malibumark

Thanks guys xx
beckyp
beckyp

Glad to hear you felt so good about your job today.
malibumark
malibumark

thanks becky!
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD

Big hug Marky...... I'm sorry that a relationship has you troubled sweetie....I hope that you can sort out what you need to and come to a peaceful conclusion for you...... xo
malibumark
malibumark

Thanks Jan!!