THE DROP OF DOOM
THIS WAS SATURDAY NIGHT, A CELEBRATION FOR NATALIE'S BIRTHDAY. IN THE PIC ARE CATHY IN WHITE, I AM IN THE MIDDLE AND NATALIE IS ON THE END. WE WERE AT MONICA'S PLACE. I WAS HAVING A GOOD TIME AND THEN I STARTED THAT FEELING, YOU KNOW THE DROP OF IMPENDING DOOM. I HAD NOT HAD MUCH TO DRINK SO IT WAS NOT THAT. NO, IT WAS CAT (CATHY) SHE STARTED TO TALK ABOUT MY DAUGHTER. WELL, THAT TOOK THE WIND OUT OF MY SAILS. THE OTHER GALS TRIED TO SHUT HER UP...YEAH, LIKE THAT WILL WORK WITH CATHY. SO I CALLED IT A NIGHT ABOUT 12:00. WE USUALLY PARTY UNTIL 3 OR 4.
AS A RESULT I WENT INTO A SPRIAL AND I HAVE SPENT SUNDAY THROUGH TO TUESDAY IN BED AND HEAVILY MEDICATED. I MANAGED TO DRAG MY BUTT OUT OF BED TODAY SO I COULD SHOWER AND WASH MY HAIR. NOW IS AM TRYING TO CATCH UP A LITTLE ON JOURNALS. I AM EXHAUSTED NOW AND I NEED TO HEAD BACK TO BED. I HOPE THIS PASSES AS QUICK AS IT CAME...YEAH, RIGHT, SHOULD I BE SO LUCKY.
ANYWAY, THAT IS MY SITUATION RIGHT NOW. I WISH ALL MY FRIENDS WELL. DEBBIE
AS A RESULT I WENT INTO A SPRIAL AND I HAVE SPENT SUNDAY THROUGH TO TUESDAY IN BED AND HEAVILY MEDICATED. I MANAGED TO DRAG MY BUTT OUT OF BED TODAY SO I COULD SHOWER AND WASH MY HAIR. NOW IS AM TRYING TO CATCH UP A LITTLE ON JOURNALS. I AM EXHAUSTED NOW AND I NEED TO HEAD BACK TO BED. I HOPE THIS PASSES AS QUICK AS IT CAME...YEAH, RIGHT, SHOULD I BE SO LUCKY.
ANYWAY, THAT IS MY SITUATION RIGHT NOW. I WISH ALL MY FRIENDS WELL. DEBBIE
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Damn-it I am so sorry that this happened to you. I am on the edge and did cancel my therapist appt. Maybe not a good thing to do but I just could not go out in this doom and gloom rainy weather. I have fought it all day, now I have given up and am going to lay in the chair and read. I hope you are able to sleep part of the way through this. It is so much easier if you can. Doesn\'t it just piss you off. I have to repeat to myself over and over that it could be so much worse but at the time it happens it is the worst. My jaws are so tight my teethe hurrt. Do you grind your teeth when you are down, dumb question. Maybe you are right about the shower. I will try. Weird how the things we do everyday without even thinking can be such a chore when we are down and out. Praying for our quick recovery. Party looked fun, glad you got to enjoy part if it. Love you Naomi xo
It is so sad and unfortunate that our \"logical\" brains do not have any control when the emotional part of our system goes on a tear. I hope this is a short rampage through your system and soon you\'ll be back on track and in control.
When I get out of wack I tend to want to hibernate too, hibernate and eat lots of things I know are not good for me, most of which also contribute to the problem by what they do to the body.
I\'m hoping for sunshine to fill your days and dreams and give you a good heavy dose of that D3 which helps fight this crap. Hugs and loves
sorry that your girlfriend ruined your evening and days later..if only she new what she had done so next time she wont do that... its a shame that this disease can take just talking about a person can bring us down so far.. i hope you can get through this rough spot quickly and be yourself..hang in there. this too shall pass. hugs .love marie
Our children are so embedded into our souls that our emotions just respond without warning sometimes Deb. My heart aches for you because I know how you feel. I crash much the same way tht you do. It comes on suddenly and hard. Sometimes for days and sometimes just a couple. Take your time with it, let it ride but remember to keep your focus positive. I just had a few of those days myself ad it is amazing how lethargic I can get.....
Please take care of you sweetie and dont let the pain swallow you up...........xo