the day is ending

when the center cannot hold, i pray - and just hope for brighter times. 

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malibumark
malibumark

sometimes i fight with myself and I go from being helpful to being selfish -
I just need to pray and keep steady as much as I can.
malibumark
malibumark

part of what I am seeing for myself right now - is that - as I go to bed or try to - or even just when i am alone- i get so emotional and needy, and I see it as really my 'need to be needed.'- I need to provide for my own needs - like having a pet to love - and friendships - and maybe spiritual life -
I can see calmly through the shower of emotion now... when I was younger this used to overwhelm me - and I would drown unconsciously in a kind of protest of all the irritants in my life- when I realize now that it was a manifestation of things like this.
beckyp
beckyp

It is good that you have been able to figure this out about yourself. Getting a pet would be cool. Is that possible for you? I have 2 cats. One sleeps with me all night and just holding her helps me to sleep.
malibumark
malibumark

where I live I can have a fish or a bird. My room is actually too small for a bird, so I think I may get a fish. Thanks so much becky!! I wish I had cats! :)
beckyp
beckyp

Fish are calming to watch.
malibumark
malibumark

thanks becky!