the cup

Today's cup entry is more about my communication.  My Wife Sarah, still is unsure about what she wants.  She says that she is done, and there is no feelings there, but still says she doesnt know what she wants.  Is it possible where there are no more feelings there?  Is it possible to gain them back?  I am really trying to communicate with sarah.  I know i have not with her, and need to work on it.  I text her and ask her how she is doing, or how her day is, or how the boys are doing, but rarely get a response back.  I called her and spoke with her last night.  All i find myself doing is telling her how i am changing.  I still need to communicate that to her, but i need to show her at the same time.  I do know that she has not filed for divorce, and does not plan on it soon.  I dont know why, but i guess that is something to hold onto.  I reached out to the people in my church today.  I told them that i suck at communicating and really need to work on it.  I will still continue to text sarah and ask her how her day is going or how she feels.  i do love and care about her well being.  I am trying to comminucate with her because i need to work on my communication skills with her.  I feel 100% empty inside today.  i cant explain it.  Maybe it is just stress getting me again.  anybody out there reading this, please pray for me and sarah.  We both need it.