The bottom line is...
Today is a day that I am not strong, I just feel like it will never happen! I am on Christmas break but my husband is off too and I love him, but he gets on my nerves when I am already feeling down. Had all the get togethers with family and did great, but then it hits me that I don't have kids and I don't know how or when! I am not strong today! After this long and this much pain, just tell me that I will one day be a mom. Tell me that this journey will end because I can't see the light today
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You don\'t have to be strong.....let it go, cry some tears and just be who you are hun!! Us as women think we need to always be strong.....but bottom line is - we\'re not always strong. We carry the burden on alot of things in life and I\'ve learned that sometimes you just have to let go of your emotions and let it out. BIG hugs to you, thinking of you - HUGS!
It\'s ok not to be strong today. That\'s what we are here for, to lift you up when you need it. This journey will end and you will be a mom someday, I know it. It may not be in the way you think, but it will happen. Just because you don\'t feel strong today doesn\'t mean you aren\'t a strong woman. We\'re here for you friend!!!
I agree with the other ladies - you aren\'t going to be strong every single day of this IF journey. IF sucks and it is so hard on all of us, even the strongest ladies (like you!). I felt the same way when I was cancelled again a few weeks ago. But you bounce back and all of a sudden \"hope\" appears again. Let it all out - when you grieve, you need to grieve. Don\'t hold it in....let it all out. We are here for you......and you are strong!
I\'m so sorry. Your words bring tears to my eyes. It\'s okay to let your guard down and grieve. Just remember that God\'s grace is sufficient for you, His power is strongest when you feel weak (2 Corinthians 12:9). Sending big hugs and lots of prayers.
I\'m sorry..but you don\'t have to be strong all the time. Everyone is entitled to have a day or five where they just need to let it all out and just be weak. As long as you don\'t stay down and Not give hope...I don\'t see anything wrong with that.
Keep your head up!!
You are always so strong and positive but you\'re human and you\'re suffering and it\'s ok to be sad sometimes. Infertility is one of the worst things I have ever been through. It is always with you and it just plain sucks. I don\'t know when your day will come but I do know that you are a fighter and there\'s always hope. Just don\'t give up. Thinking of you. xoxo
I agree with everybody else. Strength doesn\'t show itself by Always having hope or never crying and getting down. Strength shows itself be allowing yourself to grieve and feel what you\'re feeling, and regaining hope once again later. This journey has been too long, yet you can look back and remember the ups and downs. And you always came back up. That is the measure of your strength, and you should be proud. Cry it out. Tell your DH to go in the other room. Lock yourself in your room and take a break. My DH gets on my nerves when i\'m down too. So sorry girl.
Im sorry you are having a bad day.. you are entitled! I have totally been where you are. Not knowing when or how is awful. Like a bottomless pit. Just do the best you can today and let tomorrow take care of itself. Everyone says once your child comes to you, you become certain this is how things were meant to be. You are going to be a mom, you ARE going to be a mom, I dont know when or how but it is meant to happen and its going to happen. Hang in there. xx
THANKS SOOO MUCH LADIES I NEEDED TO HEAR IT!!! I DID THE UGLY CRY or CLEANSING CRY and I moved on and the rest of the day was a bit more peaceful
Well just look at me, I feel like the Poster Child for being childless. I know it was not a good day but you just have to keep on keepin\' on. Feel it, cry it and then let it go.
I know it\'s gonna happen for us both one way or another. We just have to keep trying and not give up.
*HUG! A good ugly cry is beneficial for us all friend. It perfectly ok to just exist in the weak times and take it all in so that when we have those amazing strong moments we can look back and celebrate how far we have come. I do that with my own journal entries. I can read back and see all the crappy moments and it\'s amazing to see that I am no longer there anymore. Not that everything is cupcakes and lemonade all the time for me right now either but I am stronger and better for the weaker moments. Keep your chin up friend. I am thinking of you.
Tears are so healing! I shed them more often then not. They actually cleanse my spirit so I am able to continue. When everything that you are striving for comes to fruition, you will look back on these days and see exactly how strong you are.
xoxo
Feeling down and letting it out can really be a good thing. You were so strong to get through all the holiday parties with a smile. You don\'t have to be string all the time. IF sucks big time ! Yes I\'m sure you will find a way to become a mom and I hope it will be soon.
hugs
Gotta love the ugly cry. Wish I could give you a big hug. Hope today is a better one xx
Sometimes a good ugly cry is what it takes! I hope today is better!