the bed is a web......

but somehow i escaped.......whoohoo!  won't be out of there for long, but these few minutes count as precious. 

Rio & Annie are so confused.......since I'm up on my feet they assume it's time for dinner........sorry kitty kitties, give it another hour.

and kitties please give thanks for fresh kitty litter........this is something good for the whole house!!!!!!!

saving up ENERGY to go to the church tomorrow to help fill Kayla's Kit's........I don't remember the cause, but I know it's good.  I'm going in with the 2:30 Team .....they think it will take about an hour and a half to finish the job.  The Morning Team will have already given time with their hands and hearts........good job to all helpers!

sara called yesterday......we're planning a one day yard sale for Saturday, August 13th.  she is trying to find a good time slot to come here to help me sort items for the sale.  i plan to crash on her couch the night before so i'll have a better chance of being helpful for the sale.

bruce is supposed to come on sunday to pressure wash & paint the front porch.  not sure how much he'll get done, he also has my sink in mid repair sort of......the sink was leaking and he needs to come back and finish that up......not sure what he'll do exactly on sunday but any time & help he can give is appreciated.  debbie comes monday to clean.......she called me one day last month.  i called her back twice & never heard from her again.  i try to be understanding but sometimes i feel left out.......people take my always hereness and my patience as a sign of what?  we all need people.......

i tried to sign up for a local meet ups group, i didn't do it correctly so the lady in charge of the group told me they were declining me admission.  i wrote back and stated my situation, tried to inject some humanity into it......well she wrote back, let me know that she too is disabled, but that didn't stop her from figuring out how to adhere to the rules.  well there it is........she could have been kind, she could have injected some understanding, but now i don't want to be a part of that group.  i wrote a note to meetups directly and shared my feelings.  i'm not trying to be a pain in the bum........it's mostly hurt and rejection.......compassion truly is a limited commodity in today's world.  pray for increased compassion worldwide daily........we are sorely in need of compassion.

my neighbors left early this morning for rockland maine......for a long week end with family to celebrate the annual Lobster Festival there......so I'll be visiting Steve & providing some food for him....and to talk to him, keep him from feeling soooo lonely.

it's been a month since the water park, today my forearms are peeling.  i've been peeling in sections ever since about a week after we played in the water.  the sky is growing dark........tut tut looks like rain again, always.........more rain.  what a surprise.

the carpet man Austin comes on Tuesday to repair a carpet tear in a bedroom doorway and to clean the carpeting in all the bedrooms, stairs and hallway. they haven't been cleaned since ??? not sure to tell you the truth.......Austin said my home is very tidy, which is so sweet.....how much dirt can one girl and two kitties create really?  he agreed to clean the big area rug in my kitchen for just $10 more.  looking forward to all this clean coming to Sparrow Cottage.

makes me love this little house all the more and wonders if i should turn the bedrooms in to rentable spaces.......share the house and stay put.  it's easy to romanticize this as a solution......but living with others/giving up privacy is challenging too.  debbie told me of someone who needed a room last month and i said no........i felt bad about it and still did it.  all i could think is what if she comes here and we don't get along, or what if i can put the home on the market and now have to disrupt not just me but this other person as well........lots of what ifs.  not having a garage is something i hate thinking about.......having neighbors my age sounds like such a plus......it's a lot of trade offs and what ifs.

but doing these projects is getting the house ready for something......either way it's all good.  i got those large containers emptied and wrapped newspaper round all the glass items.....put them in smaller boxes......they are sitting in the garage like little soldiers waiting for their next  command post. 

wanted to mention this to anyone with an AT&T landline.......they added *61.  this feature allows you to block the next 100 unwanted callers from bothering you!  when the ringing ends just go to your handset, listen for a dialtone, hit * 61 and the machine will give you a message letting you know the last caller is a goner.....it's lovely!

i was dragging my living room end table upstairs.....it has recovered barn wood fitted into the top.......several separate pieces slatted in.....well as i'm going up the top comes loose, two of the boards come out and one of them hits my leg hard.  i say ouch but keep going.......then upstairs i see that i'm bleeding.  good golly.......got it cleaned up and bandaged, but this kind of injury is a clear reminder of the power of fibromyalgia.  that leg hurts off and on regularly.......when i get up to walk  to the bathroom for example, it throbs.  the old healthy me wouldn't still feel this much pain almost a week later.......but this fibro girl sure does. 

i'm watching the brady bunch.......not very exciting, but every episode sounds the same which is comforting to me for "watching with my eyelids down"..........take good care of your wonderful self..........i'm going back to the cotton web in my bedroom for a rest after all this typetalking...................huggggggggggs!