the beating to my own drum

I'm home alone right now - well, with Blue - but I'm noticing

that after work this morning and still for a while after that - I had enthusiasm for my day

and the spirit and motivation to carry out my chores and tasks...

I mean I can keep up that enthusiasm and do it daily - but what I was noticing

was something very similar to what I experienced at work this morning....

At work, our MUZAC system was not working this morning... we, I, worked in silence

whereas my usual enthusiasm is bolstered by the groovy tunes....

I realized that as I worked in silence I wasn't as aware of the progress I was making as I usually am -

I was tempted to fall into a mood as I worked there - but I caught it - and kept on keeping on

with the work.... I realized the music added a kind of lubrication - a facility with getting on with the work...

So here I am now,... I am at home for the majority of the afternooon - finding myself questioning

as I usually do (hehe) - but questioning in a sense of what to take care of - how to take care of myself...

and very much pining for external input - though I do have to make an independent venture of things, of life! :)

Maybe I can see the similar kind of relationship here - of when I work in silence - (and silence wherever that may be - like right now, right here at home.)

I tempted to fall into a mood - and so maybe I can catch myself - by beating to my own drum - since I don't have muzac here - and my Ipod is broken/caput!

Anyways that beating of the own drum factor - is coming clear here - and so I am seeing it for what it is -

that alone factor - to keep on keeping on -....is beating your own drum another kind of stress? as stress comes

from outside like at work at the market? Maybe so - but it's clear enough to me now - how to handle it!!

peace and namaste! - Keep beating that drum! keep on keeping on!