the arch of the day
I don't know why this is but I guess I should follow the evidence rather than follow a vision of my life that doesn't seem to be working.
I have an arch of emotion during the day.
I work in the morning. VERY EARLY. Sometimes I feel like not going but in truth keeping busy frees my mind from worries and introspection and I get out of my head.
Then I come home relieved to be done working and I take myself for treats at the local market.
I enjoy my time eating and watching the tube for a few hours and then right as rain - it changes.
I go introspection - the pressure of NOT being active hits me. It all starts with ideation for how I should be living - but in truth - I think it comes from watching tv and not being active.
I feel like relaxing should be easy enough to do - but perhaps relaxing for me comes in activity.
I have been feeling faint, overwhelmed and dizzy. Like there's a weight upon me.
I am starting to see a pattern here - that I tend to get this way - ok in the morning and then reflective and intense towards the end of the day - and then I write crazy posts here.
I am tired and maybe will go for a walk.
I have an arch of emotion during the day.
I work in the morning. VERY EARLY. Sometimes I feel like not going but in truth keeping busy frees my mind from worries and introspection and I get out of my head.
Then I come home relieved to be done working and I take myself for treats at the local market.
I enjoy my time eating and watching the tube for a few hours and then right as rain - it changes.
I go introspection - the pressure of NOT being active hits me. It all starts with ideation for how I should be living - but in truth - I think it comes from watching tv and not being active.
I feel like relaxing should be easy enough to do - but perhaps relaxing for me comes in activity.
I have been feeling faint, overwhelmed and dizzy. Like there's a weight upon me.
I am starting to see a pattern here - that I tend to get this way - ok in the morning and then reflective and intense towards the end of the day - and then I write crazy posts here.
I am tired and maybe will go for a walk.
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Sorry you\'re having some struggles sweetie... I beat myself up at times to for not doing enough.... We\'re on some pretty heavy duty meds that take a hell of a lot out of us re energy... I have to remind myself of that at times and also to be kinder to me... I hope that perhaps you can think about having that talk with yourself to... You are always so supportive of everyone else.. You deserve the same kindness... Big squishy hug for you...xo
thanks guys. I really appreciate the messages. I started to feel sick dizzy and faint - I\'ve got to lighten up some way. You\'re both right and have good suggestions. Thanks again!! (((hugs))
thanks SO MUCH!!!