The 2ww Madness

So this 2ww feels soooo different than the other 28+ 2ww's that I've had (ugh, its hard to see that number and know we've been trying for that long and that my life has been consumed with IF for the past 2 1/2 years). This is the farthest we've come to getting a BFP and part of me feels like, well of course this will work after all the effort we've put into this, but then the realistic side of me kicks in and I know that really doesn't mean much. I'm excited to find out if we have a BFP, but I'm also terrified it could be a BFN. I bought pregnancy tests for the first time (I am not one to ever POAS, I always wait for my period or bloodtest) but this time I want to POAS for sure. Just not sure when to do it since I can't deal with the mind$%*. Beta is July 5, and my period is due July 4 so I'm not sure when to do it. What's the soonest I can POAS with accurate results? Part of me just wants to enjoy being PUPO (and convince myself this little embie is sticking, implanting and about to grow) and wait as long as possible to POAS. Ugh....this 2ww is hard stuff!!!!
xoxo's to all....