That damn wall!

No major breakdowns yet however I did come close a little while ago. Sleeping in separate rooms yet doing pretty much everything else like before, meals, TV, dogs, etc. Night time and mornings are so freaking hard. Not having her next to me to cuddle with is unbearable. Just to wake up and not see her there in the middle of the night makes me freak out. I feel like a small amount of progress has been made but who really knows. I feel so powerless. I don't want any of this. She says that it's tearing her up as well but you wouldn't know it. I know she has to shut off her emotions in order to do her job but at home you would think something would come out. The only time she's shows anything is when I catch her in a lie. She only wants to tell me how awful I was instead of trying to focus on what was good. Sometimes I wonder why I am fighting to save this marriage. I mean I know why, I love her, but she's so closed off. I guess I'll keep trying to give her some space and making her life as stress free as I can, hopefully that will light some sort of spark. I sent her flowers today, no message of thanks or anything, so that means she'll probably be upset when she gets home. Mad upset not tears of love upset. I love you Sarah Goble with all of my heart.