Thanks to all
I want to thank everyone that has sent me hugs and posted on my journal, I want you to know I appreciated every comment very much. I lit a candle on Khristy's grave that I have here ,nothing seems to help the pain ,but I know it will pass like it did last year only to return again. I know each one of you knows what I am talking about. I am finally coming out of my depression little by little. Even going to out to eat tonight with some of the girls at work. I thought that would help my mind to get out of the house. The only thing I have been doing is going to work and going home either laying on the couch or in bed. Just couldn't be bothered whether I got to do anything. That has been going on for 2 weeks now. I didn't want to call my family because I knew they would worry about me. Peter has been great comfort to me when I need it and leaves me alone when I need the space. He just seems to know what to do. Thanks again to all of you.
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Bless you Cindy. Love and hugs to you honey. Love Sarah. x
Isn\'t it wonderfull to have such warm caring friends to turn to, I know I would be totally lost without DS
You take care of yourself. I know the feeling of not wanting to do anything. I\'m glad you are getting out for awhile. Taking one day at a time together. Hugs, lucille
Since it was just 4 months ago today that my Michael passed away, I don\'t know what it will be like when it is a year and then more, but I already know that the pain can never go away and my heart is with you. We are together in this. Love, Belinda
Cindy,
I think we all go through those ups and downs and as long as they don\'t last for long or interfere with life then it is ok. Anniversaries are rough and I always struggle getting through those times. I have found for me I am more anxious before the date then the actual date. Hugs, Inga
Cindy, I am sorry that you are having such a hard time. I understand. I also know that I am not inclined to talk to my family either, for the same reason as you, they would worry. I think about my Mom. She had 3 grand children. My sons have both passed away. My older sister has a daughter.My poor Mom lost her grandsons plus she had to watch me go through all of my pain and grief. It is so hard to watch your kids hurt. A year in terms og grief is a very short time. It has been almost 6 yrs. for Paul, and 1 yr 3 months since Steven, I also lost a step daughter right after Steven.It os hard for me on their Birthdays and the Holidays. Thanksgiving was Steven\'s deal. He always cooked the turkey, and we all ate at his house. Christmas is also real bad for me. This thing about time helping> you are doing better than me at 1 yr. because at 1 yr. I was still not convinced that I was ever going to get better.You are always going to have awful times. You will learn that you will just begin to move a bit forward, then you slip back, then you fall again. What I really am trying to say, I guess is it is a up and down thing. You will get better, and then worse. We all have good days and bad days. It is just awful at first, when it is new. I am glad you have not lost your hope. I love you and I care about you. We all are here for each other. You help us and listen to us, and we do the same for you. I will be here for you. I learned a lesson the hard way and it took me a very long time, and that is you should share your feelings. I am sorry I did not share my feelings with my Mother.When I finally did talk to her, She told me that she was proud of me.Nothing could have surprised me more, or made me feel better. I never gave her a chance to help me. Your family probably would feel good about helping you. You also need to give yourself a break. You are being too hard on yourself. You are expecting too much of yourself. I have been my own worse enemy by keeping my feelings to myself. Sharing is good, holding on to your feelings is not. Love Peggy
Good to hear from you. Sorry you are in the dumps at the moment. glad to hear Peter is there for you. Here if you need me. Love and hugs Cathy