Terrible Me!

I hate when I don't visit my Daily Strength site for so long! This site has been there for me and given me many new friends that I can relate too and I usually only visit when I'm upset! It's just like when you only pray if you're in trouble!!
Not sure if I posted this earlier or not, but Dave's twin brother Darren passed away on March 1st. It was/is an extremely difficult time and will continue to be so. Dave, Darren, Leah (Darren's fiance) and myself were in an argument at the time of his passing and hadn't talked for about 2 months. Makes you really regret the things you did/didn't do.... and we shouldn't have any regrets in life. I feel in my heart that Darren knows we love him and miss him dearly, but I just wish I could tell him to his face. He was a generous man and father... he leaves behind our two nieces ages 9 and 14 from a previous marriage. We pickup his girls once a week to visit and spend some quality time with them... help them remember their Daddy. Darren's mom told me that Darren was aware that his illness could end his life soon so he told her " I just hope I live to see my girls graduate... walking them down the aisle to give them away at their weddings would be a bonus." It breaks my heart that he never got to do either. He had a brain aneurism at the age of 33. I will never forget him.
 
I'm going to start a daycare in my town, just an at home center so I can spend more time with my Gabby. I have a few parents to set up mee and greets with and am excited about this venture! What do you guys look for in a care provider? Any suggestions??
 
Thanks you guys!!