Temporary happiness
I saw him Sunday and that little bit of time he gave me made so happy. Temporary happiness that I embrace like it was the last time. I haven't heard from him and that temporary happiness turns into anxiety, into endless hope wishing for things to be different, stuck in this limbo of emotions, in a void. I did this to myself by accepting his invitation, NC is so difficult cause I don't want things to end, I'm not ready to cut that umbilical cord. Urgh!!!! Once again fighting with myself and my feelings. I don't feel sad or destroyed - today I don't feel anything.
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Today is a new day! Start NC again. You know it\'s only hurting your recovery and that you need it to move on. You slipped up. So what? You will get better at it but you have to realize it\'s for YOUR best interest to be NC. Hang in there!
Thanks lost!!!!! You don\'t know how this words really bring some healing to me today. I don\'t feel like the biggest looser cause I broke NC and was weak.
I agree with lost. Be strong! NC is the best way! I know you can do it! My motto during my horrible divorce was this, \"Why would I want to be with someone who doesn\'t want to be with ME? I don\'t!\" You deserve someone who totally wants to be with you. It\'s obvious this guy doesn\'t. Cut him loose. If it\'s meant to be, he will contact YOU.
HUGSS
Thanks starting - my brain knows I deserve better and I want so much more. I cant explain why I haven\'t been able to move on. But I\'m trying.
hang in there, one of the hardest things we have to do is get our head and heart on the same page, when I get to that point, you\'ll be the first to know, lol. One of my many mantra\'s this past year was \"I can do hard things\" Going NC is hard but you and I both know that is the best thing we can do for ourselves, isn\'t it? I think that is the only way we can become \"unstuck\" and start healing and moving forward. I\'m just full of advice, too bad I don\'t apply it in my own journey. Be happy!
Hahaha - yougo i have to laugh cause I\'m the Dr Phil with my friends. I\'m always giving advise but I can\'t apply it to me.