tears

Tears are hard for me to developeI usaually dont let myself get that far down,I surpress emotionI cut, I burn, i punch wallsI have a maskI lead people on to belive that I am stronger than I actully am.I describe myself as a robotOne day I will be normal and not feel the need to hide.The one thing that works is if somebody yells at me.i dont let people in because they always end up hurting me. i punched my wall, because i was so filled with emotion.how did i get to this point