taking a turn in my life

i've been thinking alot lately.well especially last nite.i couldnt stop thinking about mimi.i missed her alot, but i kept telling myself to not care.but i still cared.i hate her mother so goddamn much.shes the one keeping her from me.ugh. so last nite i told myself that im going to start going to churchyeah that might seem weird coming from me but maybe everything is messing up cuz of meand i need to try and fix it and pray my heart out and just show god that its a new me.then i want to save money to move the hell out of here.somthings wrong with me im getting really sickand i just want to relax with my mimi but no thats not happening not anytime soonwell im gunna go ps. love u mimiloves her jessy