Switching in my sleep

Usually when I dream there are nonsensical issues wrapped up in traumas of my life. I usually never know who’s dream it is nor have I ever switched in a dream, but last night was one of a kind. 
 I am working on the satanic ritual abuse issues and last night after seeing the Incubus for the first time disguised as a man in a restaurant I was so traumatized that I immediately switch to Victoria who endured all of that abuse. It was so mind blowing how I switched. I watched it happen in slow motion. All my fears and how Victoria dealt with the abuse was all real with no nonsensical moments. I woke up shaking. 
 I had a sense last night when I was going to bed that I might have a difficult time sleeping, because I was having huge painful body memories and desperately fought off the urge to cut.
 It never ceases to amaze me how when awake I can guide my self-conscious with learned healthy coping skills, but when I am sleeping there is no controlling the subconscious. Big sigh! 
 I wonder if there will come a time when I will have some empowering positive dreams.
At this point I hate going to bed!