sussing things out

for some reason, early in the morning as I woke up - this has been the case for two days

now - I have found that my sense of my own experience has been one of dismay.

The feeling really 'has tried' to overpower me but I have had the wisdom, thankfully, to ride it

out. I got up this morning - felt so at the mercy of life - and just went about the routine

of making coffee and checking my phone.

I was thinking about my past experience at the museum and my not liking one of the people

who works there. I mean it's not hard for me to understand - to somehow work out why

i reacted so and why i should just keep at it even so - but it really threw me off my

course as her personality was really imposing and dark. I called out the next day I was supposed to volunteer/

work with them. I needed that day off. So, I'll go back again to help them de-install the show

on the 21st . The reassurance I'm giving myself is just to stay in my own lane.

There are different vibes whereever I'll go and so I ought to be prepared for that.

It certainly has been the case with my work at the market. I haven't always gotten along

with the folks there - but by persistance - staying in my own lane and doing the work -

I've created my own space there - and I think earned the basic respect of my coworkers.

So..I'm telling myself - now in terms of this gallery work - 'there will always be different vibes'

and so keep in my own lane - despite there being so few people there.

...

So this is me sussing things out and just venting about them...which is something I need to do...

I have a day of housecleaning ahead. I need to just keep on keeping on...keep on putting one step

in front of the other... :) peace!