Surviving

I'm not crying now, at least not all the time. I keep reminding myself every time, that he would not be sorry if i hadn't found out. So what ever he is doing now is because I know about this, and not because he regrets what he did. 
I have decided: it's going to be "ME" time from now on. I'm going to do what makes ME happy. I'm going to do what I want. I don't need to care about him or his comfort or his feelings. 
I want to show him what he had at home, but went looking outside. I'm going to show him what he lost. 
I'm going to take more care of how I look and dress.I'm going to dress up more nicely now, even more than I used to. I'm going to wear all the tops and dresses he dint like me wearing cos of cleavage and stuff.I'm going to go out for dinner and drinks with friends.I'm going to join Salsa classes, cos until now he never showed interest and so I dint join. 
This is not revenge or getting back. This is what I should have been doing all along, taking care of myself first.