I try so hard to be everything and more, yet see myself as nothing....I have fought through all adversity but tonight, I'm turning in my fighting badge for many battles. This is a good thing. I can not conquer the world tonight and i can not take back the many mistakes that I have made. But, I can realize and hold tight to the things that I am good at, so that I may fill up again. And, most importantly, allow God all the way in, to take his place, where he belongs inside of me where the emptiness and nothingness has resided. I can allow God to take the reigns over things that are beyond my control.I can not retire as a fighter entirely, lol, I just have to accept that some battles are not mine to win, they are God's.And, in some cases, a battle lost is in His will for a greater purpose.