Surprisingly Happy
Today is kind of weird to me...I am actually in a very happy place right now. I am smiling!! It sounds weird but I am feeling those dark clouds starting to part ways and a little light is starting to peek in. Yesterday, I went for coffee with a co-worker of mine after school let out. She and I have gotten close as of late. She is in her early 40s and gotten pregnant in August of last year...then I got pregnant in December. She just had her baby and when I told her about what happen to me...she let me in on a little secret. Come to find out...she has been pregnant 8 times!! She has a son that is 6 and now a new baby girl. I could not believe it. So we talked and it was nice to have someone who was open to share her life story and I was able to draw so much from her. It was very refreshing to me.
I know some women hate to talk about the loss but ironically...I find it helps me so much. I love to analyize things and pick them apart so that I can get the full picture and understanding. Talking about my babies helps me keep them closer and reconginze them even more. Though I still cringe a little when I hear people talk about their pregnancies and babies...I know that my day is coming. I am hopeful that the next time...will be the right time. I still don't know why this happen, but I do know that not only have I grown...but my marriage, my husband, my family and anyone I touch with my story has grown as well.
So, I know God is moving and I know that I am growing. I just have to keep the faith and know that He is in control of my life and that whatever happens....I will make it through!!!
Felecia
I know some women hate to talk about the loss but ironically...I find it helps me so much. I love to analyize things and pick them apart so that I can get the full picture and understanding. Talking about my babies helps me keep them closer and reconginze them even more. Though I still cringe a little when I hear people talk about their pregnancies and babies...I know that my day is coming. I am hopeful that the next time...will be the right time. I still don't know why this happen, but I do know that not only have I grown...but my marriage, my husband, my family and anyone I touch with my story has grown as well.
So, I know God is moving and I know that I am growing. I just have to keep the faith and know that He is in control of my life and that whatever happens....I will make it through!!!
Felecia
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I\'m glad you are having some sunshine in your life, you deserve it. After our miscarriage, I would have good and bad days, we need to find the good in the midst of our pain. And I\'m glad you found a co-worker to share with, someone who understands you. And yes some of us keep quiet about our losses - just the way we are, but I almost wonder if there\'s more healing when it\'s talked about, so if you find peace that way, then keep doing it.
I\'m really proud of you hon. You are a strong women and your story is going to help alot of women. Cannot wait for you to get your happy ending. XOXO
I\'m so glad to read this! I always felt talking about my losses helped me, it was theraputic. It also made others realize that they didn\'t need to walk on egg shells around me. Have you spoken with Dr. Davis or Dr. Haney about a TAC? I can guarantee you that they will agree that you need one. I remember once I had mine placed I was ready to get back to TTC. Please keep me posted!!! You are in my prayers daily!
I love hearing you are in a happy place. You\'ve been through hell and deserve to smile. I admire your bravery in sharing your story, and am so glad you\'ve gained a new friend because of it :)
I LOVE this update. I am so glad you found someone to share your story with and that you are having such an amazing day! I hope more like this follow!
Love that those dark clouds are lifting and that you\'re feeling happy! You are so lucky to have met and connected with someone who understands what you are going through and props on the growing stronger through all this, that is not so easily done. Praying for many more happy days for you! XO
I\'m glad you are having a good and happy day and hope you can have more and more. My therapist tells me it\'s so important to talk about our type of loss. Part of the healing process. I\'m glad you are staying positive about your future and that you found someone that can relate.
xo
You are an amazing woman with an incredible spirit. I love hearing that there is some light peeking through the clouds and that you are able to share your story and keep your babies close to your heart.
XOXO
This journal makes me so happy.thank you for sharing with us. I am so glad you feel happy today and feel the clouds lifting and hope is there for your future family. You are an amazing person and I feel blessed to know you. I\'m also so glad to hear about your helpful friendship with this woman who has had similar pain and can understand some. Those relationships are so important. Xoxo
Thanks ladies!! It was a good day and ended on a good note as well. Thank you all for your kind words and encouragement. I will say that it is because of friends like you...I am able to find a ray of sunshine.
Love you all!!
I often think of you and hope you are doing ok so it is great to hear you are having good days even if they may be among harder ones. It can be hard but helpful to see the positive where you can, I am a talker too and I can totally understand how much it helps, I have often opened up to people only to find they have a similar story and understand much more than you ever expected
This journal is amazing!! I\'m so happy that you are finally feeling some strength and hope. I also love that you found a friend who can relate to your same issues. It is definitely helpful for me to talk about my infertility issues too. I was worried that you were going to sink into depression which I hear can be a tough hole to climb out of. So glad that you are seeing a silver lining. I hope you continue to have positive days like this! Xoxo