Surgery update and muttering
Been 3 weeks since my back surgery. Going back to the surgeon tomorrow morning if i don't chicken out. If he says ok I return to work on Friday. I have used all my sick time up and my wife wants me out of the house, so I guess I should hope to return to work. But I don't. One good thing would come of it I would be able to get back on my normal chat hours if they ever get chat working again. Why do I stress out over it I have no control. What I want is meaningless anyway, I wish I could say my role in life has been just as meaningless. Not the judgement to be for me I am sure of only that.
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How does your back feel? It\'ll be strange going back to work after such a long break. Maybe it\'ll be good to see some of the people there?
What you want is not meaningless! But to find out how to make dreams come true is something else again, unfortunately.
Good to read your journal-you write well.
Joe: Returning to work will give you that \"meaning\" in life, we all need. I had my surgery with the idea that I\'d be-able to return, myself. The surgery back-fired, on me. Making my life more difficult than ever. I am yet looking for my place in life, now. I am praying, that you have had better luck. I so miss having a meaning to society. Be positive!