summer

I have had a good summer...i have spent most of the summer with my yougest daughter and it has been much needed time...we have grown closer and im getting to be a good part of her life now. i do have to say as far as the rest of my life goes.. im at a stand still as what to do... do i sit and let my life pass me by or do i make a change? im limited at what to do...i have made a few changes as far as limiting stress in my life...im also at a stand still when it comes to me and boyfriend...we have been dateing 7 years now and truth nothings changed,,,he has alot in his life going on rt now,,,we met online and i knew when we met he was married,,, he explained he was also in a bad marrage and that it was just a matter of time...its complicated...we agreed in the beginning it was just to meet the phisical need...as time went on we fell in love...he has admitted he said i love you 1st after 3 years...i couldnt say it because i didnt feel it...i dont play with peoples feelings thats just wrong...i said it after i felt it growing...and knew i realy loved him...we have talked,,asked questions,,and said the bottom line is we love each other and want to be togeather,, scence then i have put my 13 year old daughter 1st,, and he agreed from the beginning she would always be 1st,,, alots happened for the both of us over the last 7 years,,,we still love each other very much,,,now he is getting a divorce and keeps saying we will be togeather,,,i have decided to step back and let him do what he needs to do,,,and he thinks im backing out,,,,im not,,just doing some much needed thinking,,,i dont know why god put him in my life if he wasnt gonna stay,,,just makes things alittle harder for me to understand,,,i been asking for guidence and asking what to do with this situation,,, im lost for words to comfort him,,and to comfort myself as to how this all plays out for us.