Suffocation

So I feel like I''m being suffocated by this depression.  It is just never ending.  I have another appt with pdoc next Friday, I hope all goes well.  Wish me luck with it.  I'm not looking forward to being out of insurance for a while, while I get put on my husbands..  Luckily that will go through with no problems.  I'm ready for some changes in my life.  I find myself more bored by eaech day, that could mean that I'm coming up in my moods and am looking for something else to do than sit around the house all day gaining weight cause i'm not active.  I'm going to try to get out a little more or at least work at some hobby that will help me focus on something and have a goal.  I just hate when my plans fall through and I fall short and do not complete something.  I 'm suppose to start school in a few weeks and I'm hoping that will really help.  I love school and learning and I can't wait to start.  Well, I took some klonopin tonight and feel preetty mellow, so good night world.