stunned

So since my last entry. My husband stopped calling me and texting me. Says he has nothing to say to me. This morning I get a message from him says he needs time to himself to figure things out. Ok fine. But he also saus that he has plans today and it is none of my business who he is with because he wants to start fresh without me keeping tabs on him. I don't want to loose him all together. I love him so much and just want to go home. The longer we are apart the more I realize that I really do forgive him for cheating. I am still jealous of the fact that he works with her and that he talks to her more than me. But I realize that I need him in my life. I don't know how to live without him.