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late start today, very late......in the shower at 2:30 in the afternoon, my head still hurts.  all this pressure at the back on my head, feels like a vice grip getting tighter and tighter......better than it was earlier, enough to shower,dress, do some chores. 

i feel such a sense of contentment and pride when I do my chores, it sounds funny maybe, but there have been so many days when I couldn't do anything......now it's a chance to do, an I get to do........I derive satisfaction from simple things.  Making jello.......wiping off the washer and dryer......rinsing off the kitty litter mat outside with the garden hose.

you may all know this, but i didn't......sometimes items in the store at walmart vs. buying them online and picking them up in the store are very different.  the kitty litter tracking mat for example....on the store shelves it costs $9.99.  In store pick up, same EXACT item?  $6.99.  the kitty litter box i got not long ago?  it's $17.99 on their store shelves, it cost me $7.99 with in store pick up.  these searches are definitely worth the cost of comparison before you buy.

maybe everybody knows this but not me......no glad i finally noticed.  it's not like that with everything of course, but enough items to make it worth our while to check out........added savings for the budget!

i just went through the mail, paid bills....i've been overspending.  time to knock it off asap!  i went crazy at walmart ......where was my head at?  i think i was going through a kind of rebellion, if i wanted it i just put it in the cart.......pay for your stuff and don't worry about the budget.  well that doesn't work well or for long, now i need to tighten things up for the next few months to get my budget on track.  it's not terrible, it's just flat out wrong and needs to be corrected. 

sucks always having to be the grownup --- i think i really was feeling rebellious, in my head it was sort of like.....well crap i'm super stupid sick AGAIN, not fair, let's buy anything we want and treat it like a life salve.......which only fake works in the moment.  then you see that you, well not you, in this case ME, that I have SHOT myself in the proverbial monetary foot.  so stupid........

usually when i get that way i just move things around in my house......a cheap way of not buying new things.  making what i have feel new and wonderful again........but this time i went crazy.  overspent, hanging my headshot on the wall of shame.  definitely not the employee of the month..........gonna do, can do, will do better! 

enjoying fresh cut flowers in my home from my own garden......so pretty.  there is this random tiny ivy growing all of a sudden next to the rose bushes.......it has tiny delicate white flowers, so lovely.  i put them in a crystal vase next to me, it flutters slightly from the ceiling fan.....makes me think of a super model coming down the runway showing off her hair....only in this case it's her pretty leaves and blossoms!  lol.....

i finished the mirror.  repainted it from deep blue to a bright white.  still not happy with it, but i promised myself i would hang it and live with it for a few days to see how it feels later.  i still might take it to Tammy to trim the pretty edges........but there's that budget thing.........no no ruthie, no no! so happy to have the craft table out of the small living room......wahooooooooooo!  more room for me and the kitties!

......already bargaining in my head, she'd probably only charge me $20 if i bring her the paint......no no ruthie.  chilllllllllll.

about time to feed the kitty kids......make my own dinner.  tonight it gonna be high in protein.  praying it will rain, i think this is a barometric pressure headache.  i wanted to write about how things have changed since 2010, but i completely forgot to do that.....while doing my chores today i put the bedroom trash can in the garage and put an empty egg carton on the edge of my triple dresser......yup, one of those days!  but my (smelly ol') trash is at the curb, so it's a good day!

don't give up on yourself EVER!  never never never ever.....you're doing your best.  gold stars for everybody!  Rio and Mia send their love.........Mia is soooooo wonderful.  I've laughed so hard lately........gooooooood medicine for this old heart of mine! (wow, now i see another reason why my budget is off, i forgot about the vet fees.  and the power washing........i thought it was all me being a walmart bad guy.  now it makes more sense........this may get me off the wall of shame in half the time.  lol..........sigh, take care of you!  xoxoxo