Stressed, depressed, and fucking exhausted

I'm totally stressed out, depressed, and tired :( Justin (my bf) got laid off back in March and can't find a job, so we're also quite poor. He's bummed out that he can't find a job, and it's very stressful/depressing for both of us.I haven't been sleeping well at all this week, and have basically had to take something to get me to sleep and I hate doing that. I've been having really bad nightmares too :( and our new cat is being a bitch to the old cat - hissing and swatting at him, so we might have to just give her back to the shelter and it's really sad because she's sooo sweet when it's just us in the room with her. So basically things totally suck right now. I haven't recieved my offer letter for my new job yet but am expecting it next week. I met with my soon to be bosses about a week and half ago, and they told me that they had to post the position online for 2 weeks (company policy) but weren't going to interview anyone else. So basically I should (hopefully) get it next week. I'm exhausted...I took NyQuil to get me to sleep last night and woke up terrified from a nightmare at 3:30. I was groggy but feared I would have a panic attack, and I'm out of Xanax (picking up a prescription today hopefully - if Justin gets his unemployment check) so I took anohter belt of it. Yesterday at 3AM I had one of the worst panic attacks I've ever had in my life. I was sobbing and terrified, and basically felt like I was having a bad acid trip. Luckily, I had one more Xanax left, so I took it. The other day, I read an excellent description of depression on Fark of all things. It was basically like...when you're in the ocean and you get smacked by a powerful wave, and you're tumbling around and don't know which way is up.That's how I feel right now. Absolutely powerless and overwhelmingly sad. Nothing is going right, and I feel like I don't have any fucking friends. I cried three times yesterday, and feel the tears coming now...I fucking hate myself.