Stressed, Chill and Whateva!!
Well is the grass always greener, Yes it is, but someone is over there killing themselves to keep it that way. lol
I heard from my best friend. I am not sure but she puts me down and picks me up when the mood fits her. I am not sure, or maybe it's me... I can not allow my current mood to reflect my entire attitude. My current mood is always mad, angry, upset, bitching, unhappy, and just stressed. I am not sure if my life has been in such a mess lately that this is my new attitude or way of looking at life or this is really who I am. I want to think about when I first start as an adult to determine if I was always a Downer Person, a negative nilly. I am not sure, because most of my family was alive and my oldest son was not almost killed and I had a great job. So with that being said, I may have become a Negative person due to my circumstances. So how do I change my attitude.... I pray all the time, but maybe not the correct way. Or maybe I do not practice patience and understanding for myself, like preach to others. I know one thing, it is hard being like this because I am not getting anywhere but tired and stressed.
Also, I'm lazy or tired. I cannot tell. The drive home is more than a person can bare sometimes. I need to find something to do in the middle in order to break the routine. It is taking more time to get home when I take the cheap way and my nerves are fried!!
AT work I am burned out... that place will suck you dry!!! They want you to do 100,000 things and count it against you when you don't. I like the pay but the work is more than what they are paying you.
Also, I am not sure if I want to keep my therapist, I am not sure if we are making progress or what. No more thoughts just wanted it to be documented that I am not sure. I think I am looking for instant gratification. And sometimes he don't seem like he understands me.
Also, the faces at the bottom needs more emotions, because I am both ok and sad, equally.
I heard from my best friend. I am not sure but she puts me down and picks me up when the mood fits her. I am not sure, or maybe it's me... I can not allow my current mood to reflect my entire attitude. My current mood is always mad, angry, upset, bitching, unhappy, and just stressed. I am not sure if my life has been in such a mess lately that this is my new attitude or way of looking at life or this is really who I am. I want to think about when I first start as an adult to determine if I was always a Downer Person, a negative nilly. I am not sure, because most of my family was alive and my oldest son was not almost killed and I had a great job. So with that being said, I may have become a Negative person due to my circumstances. So how do I change my attitude.... I pray all the time, but maybe not the correct way. Or maybe I do not practice patience and understanding for myself, like preach to others. I know one thing, it is hard being like this because I am not getting anywhere but tired and stressed.
Also, I'm lazy or tired. I cannot tell. The drive home is more than a person can bare sometimes. I need to find something to do in the middle in order to break the routine. It is taking more time to get home when I take the cheap way and my nerves are fried!!
AT work I am burned out... that place will suck you dry!!! They want you to do 100,000 things and count it against you when you don't. I like the pay but the work is more than what they are paying you.
Also, I am not sure if I want to keep my therapist, I am not sure if we are making progress or what. No more thoughts just wanted it to be documented that I am not sure. I think I am looking for instant gratification. And sometimes he don't seem like he understands me.
Also, the faces at the bottom needs more emotions, because I am both ok and sad, equally.
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