Stressing...

Well, my husband is home now and wow - I had no idea the extent of care he would need.  We had a stressful day yesterday and I (not the one who had the surgery):]  am super stressed out!  All kinds of things like the medications, the timing, the ice machine (which the hospital forgot to give us the power supply for), the fact that he is still having a fever, etc.,  Then the power went out last night for about 3 hours . . .whew - just had to write things down.  I realize how strong this crazy addiction is under stressful conditions - all I can think about is getting away to relieve the stress... now I understand how I used the slot machines for that purpose.  I have a lot of anxiety and only you guys would understand.  Of course I'm concerned about my husband and want to take care of him well but I feel like I'm coming out of my skin.  That's crazy... Anyway, I had to vent and will move on to the next task... calling the doctor about the fever. Thanks for listening all of you guys, Smokeygirl