Strange...
...How my mind works. It's different from many others, I assume. Following up on yesterday's post, I think I'm in the ballpark now in isolating the problem thinking; the "Motis Operandi" of my typical way of thinking (process of perceiving my world).
Evidently my self-talking mind is an extrovert, or thinks it is...it won't shut up! Perhaps that's a good thing, it keeps me trying to heal my mind and gives me reasons to do so.
The reason I bring it up is that self-talk is important to feelings; and they're often irrational. Especially for someone who is as 'creative' (fantasizing) as I am; and that's not a value judgement IMO, there are advantages to having the ability to visualize things through 'fantasies'. People who cannot 'pretend' or fantasize are the only ones who think it's 'bad'; it's just an opinion: their's. Anyway, I need to catch my thoughts and differentiate between "something's WRONG with me" and "I don't like this feeling". Somehow having negative feelings I associate with being wrong, that they're not allowed; that only happy feelings are allowed. It is an unnatural limitation set on feelings, putting a value judgement on things that are completely natural. We, as humans, (me especially) have a range of feelings. None were designed to be absolute and unchangeable. Humans thrive on change, stimulation; differentiation in our environment. How much change is often problamatical with negative feelings, especially when they become 'stuck' or 'chronic'. I'm slowly starting to get that concept. Feelings just are, they ebb and flow. They're not permanent. That we HAVE feelings is permanent, it's what makes us human. That they're always the same, and 'SHOULD' be permanent in one state is NOT human.
They are not to be controlled, as I understand it; they're just connections to the impact of memories of thoughts and experiences. Also, we can't actually control which feelings will occur to us when. Like in dreams, although I do understands that it is possible to take control of your dreams if you can become aware that you're dreaming. Learning to allow your feelings to pass instead of denying them is a good habit. It's like a message from your body telling you it's immediate status, what it believes needs attending to in the moment. As though it's asking your rational mind "Is this important or not? I'm confused about what to do next. I'm detecting a problem that may or may not be important. Tell me what to do." It's about awareness and significance. Feelings have a pattern that has been made to work automatically based on historical experiences that may be outdated and is no longer relevant for its current age and ability.
"Don't worry, be happy."
Rich
Evidently my self-talking mind is an extrovert, or thinks it is...it won't shut up! Perhaps that's a good thing, it keeps me trying to heal my mind and gives me reasons to do so.
The reason I bring it up is that self-talk is important to feelings; and they're often irrational. Especially for someone who is as 'creative' (fantasizing) as I am; and that's not a value judgement IMO, there are advantages to having the ability to visualize things through 'fantasies'. People who cannot 'pretend' or fantasize are the only ones who think it's 'bad'; it's just an opinion: their's. Anyway, I need to catch my thoughts and differentiate between "something's WRONG with me" and "I don't like this feeling". Somehow having negative feelings I associate with being wrong, that they're not allowed; that only happy feelings are allowed. It is an unnatural limitation set on feelings, putting a value judgement on things that are completely natural. We, as humans, (me especially) have a range of feelings. None were designed to be absolute and unchangeable. Humans thrive on change, stimulation; differentiation in our environment. How much change is often problamatical with negative feelings, especially when they become 'stuck' or 'chronic'. I'm slowly starting to get that concept. Feelings just are, they ebb and flow. They're not permanent. That we HAVE feelings is permanent, it's what makes us human. That they're always the same, and 'SHOULD' be permanent in one state is NOT human.
They are not to be controlled, as I understand it; they're just connections to the impact of memories of thoughts and experiences. Also, we can't actually control which feelings will occur to us when. Like in dreams, although I do understands that it is possible to take control of your dreams if you can become aware that you're dreaming. Learning to allow your feelings to pass instead of denying them is a good habit. It's like a message from your body telling you it's immediate status, what it believes needs attending to in the moment. As though it's asking your rational mind "Is this important or not? I'm confused about what to do next. I'm detecting a problem that may or may not be important. Tell me what to do." It's about awareness and significance. Feelings have a pattern that has been made to work automatically based on historical experiences that may be outdated and is no longer relevant for its current age and ability.
"Don't worry, be happy."
Rich
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