Stomach is Recovering
I'm feeling a bit better today. I've been able to keep all the food I've eaten in my body for more than a couple hours. I had my chicken soup for breakfast, ramen for lunch and I'm going to have chicken with mac and cheese for dinner. I was able to make it to work today, too, which was good. I was having a bit of stomach problems when I first woke up, but I was determined to make it in today, and I'm glad I stuck it out. I can't afford to be missing so many days when I'm planning on taking a bunch of vacation. I'm going to see my mom for a week for Christmas, and then for January I'm going to be gone almost the whole month. But I want to take my time off when I can. Once I start working there, I won't be able to leave whenever I want.
With the way things are looking, I hope I can get a job there in March. I won't be back until early February, and then I have to wait for the position that they want me for to open up. Then I will apply and hope I get it. I hope I don't have to apply too many times. I looked, and they filled the position I originally applied for at the beginning of the month. This means that there's competition for the positions, and so I need the good graces of everyone I can get. This means no more calling in sick and missing days, and being on my best behavior. That's not really a problem, since I'm always trying to be good. I know I have people watching and listening to what I'm doing, so I know to be good. Besides, I try and be a good person anyway.
I was talking with my old boss, Daisy, today and she was saying that she wants me back at the information desk. I wouldn't mind, since I like being there. I don't like that I can't leave early, but I do what I can. Today I left early since there wasn't any more work for me to do. Each job has it's perks. I like working the information desk since I get to use my Spanish and get to see a bunch of different people all the time. I like working in Managed Care because the people are nice and I don't have to worry too much about how I look. At the information desk, I'm in front of people and need to look nice, and some days I just don't feel like dressing up and putting on makeup. But still, I like where I'm at, but I would prefer to be at the information desk.
Mood today was good. I woke up on time, actually a bit early, and Geo got sleep too. He's been having trouble sleeping. I had my coffee this morning, and left a bit early to try and catch my boss. He wasn't in, so I just went into my position early. I looked at the food in the cafeteria, but there wasn't anything that caught my eye. I did have some Baked Lay's today because I got hungry and I didn't have any ramen with me, so I just went to the vending machine. I actually was a bit hypomanic today... I had to take half a milligram of klonopin to calm me down. I did get the Christmas tree set up, so that was good. I may have to move it, but it's okay.
Sleep was good last night. I woke up a couple times, at my normal hours (midnight and 3am) to use the bathroom, but other than that I slept through the night. I got good restful sleep and felt good today. I tried calling the dermatologist to make an appointment at the local hospital, but I would have to call the main branch since they don't take people with no insurance there. I thought they did, but they don't, so I have to go to the main branch downtown. Oh well, I need to get this thing under my eye gone since it's starting to interfere with my vision. Just when I look down, but still. It's also still growing, so that's not a good sign either.
Food was good today... I was in my calorie range and everything! I don't know how I did it, but I did. I'm glad. I'm on the low end, under 1,500 calories, but still. I'm in the range I'm supposed to be in. I get a gold star for today. Now if I can just keep it up for tomorrow. I think it's the mac and cheese that I eat at night that pushes me over. It's funny how I have to eat things that are calorie dense to get me over my limit when normally people on diets avoid foods that have 400 calories a serving (like the mac and cheese). Stress today was low, I was just having fun at work and at home, setting up the tree. Sleep like I talked about was good, and so is my mood! I'm just doing well, and especially now that my stomach is feeling better.
With the way things are looking, I hope I can get a job there in March. I won't be back until early February, and then I have to wait for the position that they want me for to open up. Then I will apply and hope I get it. I hope I don't have to apply too many times. I looked, and they filled the position I originally applied for at the beginning of the month. This means that there's competition for the positions, and so I need the good graces of everyone I can get. This means no more calling in sick and missing days, and being on my best behavior. That's not really a problem, since I'm always trying to be good. I know I have people watching and listening to what I'm doing, so I know to be good. Besides, I try and be a good person anyway.
I was talking with my old boss, Daisy, today and she was saying that she wants me back at the information desk. I wouldn't mind, since I like being there. I don't like that I can't leave early, but I do what I can. Today I left early since there wasn't any more work for me to do. Each job has it's perks. I like working the information desk since I get to use my Spanish and get to see a bunch of different people all the time. I like working in Managed Care because the people are nice and I don't have to worry too much about how I look. At the information desk, I'm in front of people and need to look nice, and some days I just don't feel like dressing up and putting on makeup. But still, I like where I'm at, but I would prefer to be at the information desk.
Mood today was good. I woke up on time, actually a bit early, and Geo got sleep too. He's been having trouble sleeping. I had my coffee this morning, and left a bit early to try and catch my boss. He wasn't in, so I just went into my position early. I looked at the food in the cafeteria, but there wasn't anything that caught my eye. I did have some Baked Lay's today because I got hungry and I didn't have any ramen with me, so I just went to the vending machine. I actually was a bit hypomanic today... I had to take half a milligram of klonopin to calm me down. I did get the Christmas tree set up, so that was good. I may have to move it, but it's okay.
Sleep was good last night. I woke up a couple times, at my normal hours (midnight and 3am) to use the bathroom, but other than that I slept through the night. I got good restful sleep and felt good today. I tried calling the dermatologist to make an appointment at the local hospital, but I would have to call the main branch since they don't take people with no insurance there. I thought they did, but they don't, so I have to go to the main branch downtown. Oh well, I need to get this thing under my eye gone since it's starting to interfere with my vision. Just when I look down, but still. It's also still growing, so that's not a good sign either.
Food was good today... I was in my calorie range and everything! I don't know how I did it, but I did. I'm glad. I'm on the low end, under 1,500 calories, but still. I'm in the range I'm supposed to be in. I get a gold star for today. Now if I can just keep it up for tomorrow. I think it's the mac and cheese that I eat at night that pushes me over. It's funny how I have to eat things that are calorie dense to get me over my limit when normally people on diets avoid foods that have 400 calories a serving (like the mac and cheese). Stress today was low, I was just having fun at work and at home, setting up the tree. Sleep like I talked about was good, and so is my mood! I'm just doing well, and especially now that my stomach is feeling better.
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what a great sounding day!! you sound upbeat, happy and relaxed, lets hope that continues for a long time. did you get the tree decorated? im going to do mine today too, plus the house decorations. you really need to get to the doctor about your eye, it is getting worse and i dont like that it is interfering with your sight. i wish i was able to eat better like you do, well some day. many hugs and support.