Still waiting
I know it's bad that I keep thinking about the inheritance. The checks from the bonds were supposed to be here this week (by the end of the week...so maybe it will come tomorrow) yet they're still not here and it's making me literally crazy and anxious. I'm at a stand still and really need this money. My bank account is in the negative and I am hoping that they don't close my account. I don't think they will but it is making me anxious.
Im coming down on almost every medication except for lithium. I was previously on 800mg of seroquel with is the highest amount a doctor can prescribe. I became dependent after a few years. I initially took it for bipolar mood and then kept taking it because it sedated me just enough during the day and allowed me to basically fall asleep and blackout. My psychiatrist told me that she would prescribe me something to sleep, but I told my regular doctor this and she went ahed and prescribed me Ambien. The first few nights it didn't work so I called her back and she gave me Ambien CR and she upped the dosage. I am going to try it tonight. The first night that I took the regular Ambien I had a really vivid dream and it was very odd. I have read thing about the sleep walking and sleep driving and sleep eating. I have not experienced any of these side effects but it might be because I am so used to the effects of seroquel. I just need some sleep! I feel bad about sleeping in too late, and I know I go to bed early (around 9pm).
Before I begin summer semester I need a new computer and I am waiting on those checks. It's making me anxious. The mail comes tomorrow so I hope it's in there, otherwise I have to wait until Tuesday. I need the money tomorrow. Im broke and I just need it. It was a God send that my grandmother actually left that much money to me.
Im gonna watch a movie and try to sleep.
Goodnight moon.
Im coming down on almost every medication except for lithium. I was previously on 800mg of seroquel with is the highest amount a doctor can prescribe. I became dependent after a few years. I initially took it for bipolar mood and then kept taking it because it sedated me just enough during the day and allowed me to basically fall asleep and blackout. My psychiatrist told me that she would prescribe me something to sleep, but I told my regular doctor this and she went ahed and prescribed me Ambien. The first few nights it didn't work so I called her back and she gave me Ambien CR and she upped the dosage. I am going to try it tonight. The first night that I took the regular Ambien I had a really vivid dream and it was very odd. I have read thing about the sleep walking and sleep driving and sleep eating. I have not experienced any of these side effects but it might be because I am so used to the effects of seroquel. I just need some sleep! I feel bad about sleeping in too late, and I know I go to bed early (around 9pm).
Before I begin summer semester I need a new computer and I am waiting on those checks. It's making me anxious. The mail comes tomorrow so I hope it's in there, otherwise I have to wait until Tuesday. I need the money tomorrow. Im broke and I just need it. It was a God send that my grandmother actually left that much money to me.
Im gonna watch a movie and try to sleep.
Goodnight moon.
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