still upset.

just can't get over it, and I can't understand why. i see now he was unhappy for awhile. he got back onto the dating site we met on. i decided to try it out again, and there's discussions from him back in december. i'm just mad that I gave him a chance. and then he screwed it up again. he says he wants me the way i was. and i know i changed. i think i was codependent. i didn't want to buy anything for me, always for him. i felt like i couldn't go out with friends, but he did all the time. maybe i was the one that started it on a downward spiral. it really sucks. but in the same respect, i see how bad it was. i mean, i dealt with his problems, and he didn't deal with mine. it was all about him. the leo, and i'm just a lowly aquarius. and i lost that. i lost me somewhere, not really all the way, but i was shadowed. and now i'm going to find me again.