Still trying to adjust

He left suddenly about 2 weeks ago, and I'm still trying to adjust. It wouldn't have been quite such a huge adjustment if he hadn't left me high and dry with bills due that he KNEW I needed his financial help with.... he knew that !!!! How can a Man leave someone knowing this ?

Then to top it all off... I tried to be civil, and simply say " Hello... I hope that you're well, and happy, and that I miss you, " on facebook, but only about 2 days after that he deletes me as a Facebook Friend, AND BLOCKS ME on there !!!!! 

Deleting me as a Facebook Friend I can kind of understand, but BLOCKING ????? WHY BLOCK ME ???? 

I did NOTHING SO HORRIBLE... OR TERRIBLE TO HIM.... UNLESS LOVING HIM, AND TRYING TO MAKE HIM HAPPY WAS A BAD THING IN HIS EYES !!!!! 

So now I'm stuck with trying to figure out my financial situation without him. I still haven't figured out how I'm going to survive. 

I wish I was never born.