STILL TIRED!

Monday, 9-29-08:  I am still so tired.  Today it is more because of lack of sleep.  I went to bed at 12:30 a.m. last night...early for me.  Craig tossed, turned, got up, cursed, kicked covers, etc.  Neither one of us hardly slept!  I think he is just too consumed with worry as well as his grief catching up with him.   I would've gone in Scott's room and slept but the cover and spread in there are light-weight....no one sleeps in there.  It is getting kind of chilly at night.  And, there is no alarm clock.  I think I will put a warmer blanket on as well as buy an alarm clock.  I have kind of wanted to sleep in his bed, anyway.  That way if Craig has a crazy night, or I do, I can sleep somewhere else. The kids at school were "off" today.  Not just our class, but the whole school.  Is there a full moon coming?!?!?  Weather change??!?!  Whatever it is, I hope it ends soon! One of Scott's friends came over tonight.  She shared a couple of songs that reminded her of Scott.  Ashley was one of his best friends.  We walked and talked down memory lane for quite a while.  Scott's 23rd birthday is coming up in Oct.  She and Scott had decided that if neither of them was married by the time he was 23 they would marry each other.  I am not certain that would've happened but it is hard for her, just the same.  Once again, I feel blessed that his friends stay in contact with me. Chris, according to his MySpace blog, is thinking of going back to school to learn the video end of things.  There are very few people who know the Audio and the Video.  I hope he goes.  It will certainly help his career. When Ashley was here we were talking about Scott & her playing the "old school" video games.  It brought to mind a Scotty memory.... Chris had a Nintendo...they had only been out for a while and he was mastering Mario.  Well, I could not keep up with him and he was too impatient to teach me.  He was 11.  Scott was only 5.  He, very patiently, taught me how to play the Mario game, which mushrooms to jump on, etc.  He was so cute as the teacher and so very patient!  It was such quality time to sit with him and have him instruct me!  He would've made a great teacher & Dad.  He had the patience of Job when it came to teaching! I miss him!