Still swimming

My sister, my kindred soul, my friend,  I have thought so much about what we have talked about.  You say you talk too much about you but that is not true.  We wear the same shoes and only the names have changed.  You in your vulnerability help me to feel what has been buried too deep for too long.  Again I can stop and look into myself and wonder am I really any different for all that I have been through.  Has all my therapy and medication and life experience helped me to achieve the happiness and inner peace I so long for.  I see you and it is almost looking into a mirror.  Our fears, faults and failures sseem to be what we take with us as we try to move forward. 
You said something very profound today.  I have been turning it over in my mind again and again.  It was your message of hope spoken in tears.  That even in your most desperate of times you chose to keep swimming.  The inner strength you possess without awareness of it.  Somewhere in you lost as you may feel you know you are worth fighting for.
And that my friend is why I will keep swimming too.