Still so far away
Three weeks without masturbation, a little less without porn, I did watch like 5 minutes of a porn movie on tv.
It is still very hard for me.
I discovered that frustration, anger and anxiety are the three main causes that trigger my addiction. It is as if I need a relief an there is only one thing that gives me so much satisfaction and relaxation, porn. To make things worse, porn is never enough, so I masturbate. It is then when I finally get to feel a little better, of course ten minutes later I feel like a worm unworthy of love, friends, and happiness but despite knowing all this I go through with it anyway. I can make many promises to myself, I can think of tricks and strategies to keep myself away from porn but I am my own enemy and sometimes it is just too easy to break all those thinks an justify them.
I need to keep myself focused and motivated so that I can fight back and defeat porn and masturbation. I don't want to be an addict, no, please no.
It is still very hard for me.
I discovered that frustration, anger and anxiety are the three main causes that trigger my addiction. It is as if I need a relief an there is only one thing that gives me so much satisfaction and relaxation, porn. To make things worse, porn is never enough, so I masturbate. It is then when I finally get to feel a little better, of course ten minutes later I feel like a worm unworthy of love, friends, and happiness but despite knowing all this I go through with it anyway. I can make many promises to myself, I can think of tricks and strategies to keep myself away from porn but I am my own enemy and sometimes it is just too easy to break all those thinks an justify them.
I need to keep myself focused and motivated so that I can fight back and defeat porn and masturbation. I don't want to be an addict, no, please no.
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Don\'t give up. I feel the exact same way and go through the exact same cycle. The only thing that gives me hope is God\'s mercy. Looking at porn does not make us trash. We each have a unique purpose in this world.
Thanks a lot for your comment :)
keep moving on towards a better person, a person where you walk in the streets and you know did something really hard and really great and you are a good person
Don\'t give up! I was in that place, I stopped watching 4 months ago and I decided to go out to the bars no matter how nervous I was! I met a nice woman and we have been dating for almost a month now. HAVE FAITH!