Still on my trip
Still on my trip. Went for a nature walk this morning. Things are. My mind took a wrong turn early this morning and that kind of set the tenor of an unstable morning. I'm taking it in stride, trying too and just grateful for the good moments. Keep on keeping on. My mind is not so strong, but there will be good moments. I wish I could commit to something bigger in my life than mental health care but I suppose I should just look at the things in my life back in California that I do have and be grateful indeed!! Things are good amen.
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Enjoy your time. I think we all get to that feeling - is this all I’m doing is managing my mental health? But enjoy the moments you are in. There’s more to life. Sending hugsies.
For the last several days Mark I've done nothing of any type import action wise in my life....I decided to take a week OFF of 'doing stuff' in order to get a handle on my mental health and the current conflict with my son....
Please take into account that you have Left Your Safe Place and are pushing the and 'routine based' safe boundaries with this wonderful adventure to explore the possibilities of your future.
Could this possibly be a part of the need to be more in=tuned with your mental health? I know for me, when I took my retreat last October to Maine I was Very Aware of my mental state and had to keep bringing myself back again and again to not get swept away with my 'thinking'...at time became a lot to deal with.
Do what you do best: Keep On Keeping On
You are very brave Mark, and very aware of shifts of mood/thoughts....you will be just fine, so please enjoy your time.....
Hugs
the longer i ply radical acceptance to my mental health needs, the less of a sacrifice it feels. some days i can even find a ray of gratitude for the unique perspective it gives me in this world. then we get to all the brothers and sisters-in-healing i never would have met without the demands of my mental health needs.
i hope you leave california in california. just hoping. . . you're in florida now and there are wonders to behold there. there are wonders to behold in maryland, as well. enjoy and trust that california will probably not slide into the ocean while you are gone.
Thanks guys. I can’t think about this right now but I wanted to tell you I saw your responses and right now can’t wrap my head around anything. I’ll get back to you guys tomorrow. Thanks again!!
Thanks so much guys. It’s later now and I’ve read all your replies. Yes, Nikki there is more to life and it all is seeming to be woven and Yes Mary Louise I am in a new place without my usual order of life and so my mind is going big picture. I’ll. Give myself the reassurance along the way and Yes Arfie there are adventures to have and acceptance and being with my relative here in Florida is all giving me the reasonability to stay grounded and yet live with my emotions. That’ realization or dynamic is letting me see possibilities in the choices to make when given opportunities that can be seen as experiments (and like eras Nikki) and not changeless commitments. Peace and thanks.